scaredy cat

Because the unknown is really, really scary.

So what's new? Well, I'm off to Depok again. Though now for internal medicine. And at a different hospital. People are saying that it's going to be fine and all, but still, as my first major posting, this is kind off daunting. Almost finished packing, some stuff that I'm still using are out, but that's it. I'll throw it in my luggage when I'm done and almost out the door probably.

Here come sleepless nights?

Heading out around noon, insyaAllah. The kos/kontrak has been confirmed. I think. If not, then yeah. Die lah, us. Still have to negotiate the entire rent though. There is a rather sad trend of overcharging for non-local people. Happens everywhere, I know. Still, sad, sad fact. We aren't made of money and coins, people.

I am scared, I admit. It's always the same feeling. Fear of the unknown, of some sorts. Because, yeah, we really don't quite know what we're supposed to be doing. But apparently, that's what the first week is for. Acclimatization. Getting used to new hospital = new rules. New behavioral patterns we have to adapt to. It's all fun.

InsyaAllah, to a good, educational, fun 10 weeks in internal medicine.

packing is such a drag

akunona

Less than 24 hours...

and I'll be on a plane, heading back to Jakarta. The home away from home. Or the rumah kost away from rumah.

You can probably actually feel the depression coming at you in waves from this post....

It's not that I don't love what I'm doing, of course I do. It was something I had always wanted when I was young till form 3 and had stayed in the back of my mind while I was thinking of other more possible career paths ( I mean come on, I constantly failed add maths. I had no illusions I could get into med school with that). It's just depressing to be so far from everyone.

First block will be something to do with the senses? Biggest subjects would be ophthalmology and ENT stuff. I have no idea. Otitis media acuta. Hahahahaha. LOL

Had my results a few days ago. I passed everything, thank god. And my pointer wasn't really all that bad considering I had failed two subjects last semester. (remember, that angsty post)

I've nearly finished packing. I need to pack this laptop but, yeah, not yet of course.

I'm also fairly worried about my flight tomorrow (or today, as the case maybe). I've been delayed hours twice and only received the notification less than 24 hours before I was due to take off. But I just came off Airasia and apparently there hasn't been any changes. Lets hope it stays that way.

Oh well, back to Jakarta we go. Hello 6th semester. Hello endless days of neuroticism . Hello, hello, hello....

Bye Temerloh. See you again soon. Most probably around August. XD

mybagisheavy

AkunOnA

It looked so saddeningly empty: entry of Pity

yeah.... the blog looks at least a little bit presentable now.

Anyway, to blogging...

I really shud be packing you know. Or at least sorting out my stuff and all that...

but I don't want to... Not yet anyway.

The floor's cold incidently... It's been cold almost everyday. You'd think a tropical country would at least be warm... Yeah, goes to show how global warming isn't a myth... (hmm, sumhow I find that rather ironic)...

Due to the cold and humid weather we've been having, some mold apparently thought it prudent to grow in my wardrobe...

yeuchhh..

so yeah, just finished cleaning that out.

I have tons to do. Yet I'm not doing them...

gimme a break

I've been rather short-fused recently.... yeah....

Shouldn't have done that...

Sorry guys.... it's not you, it's me.

I really should learn to control my temper... Or at least find a better outlet for them...

Any ideas? I went to TA the last time I was in a bad mood... at night...alone...

Yeah, not exactly the safest choice but I did feel better.

...humhaa...

till next rambles... I have nothing else to say...

~aKuNOnA~