Which cliff would you recommend?

So that I can jump off as soon as possible and at the best possible place.

Not exactly physically tired, but mentally weary. A lot to think about, a lot to puzzle out. I need better talking skills. Scripts are different.

Brain is tired. tired. tired.

I've been thinking about this particular case since Thursday and there's nothing I can do to get it out of my head. I have a perpetual headache and an undercurrent of anxiousness. Sleeping only helps for 6 hours. Yes, I sleep early now. Well, sometimes. Especially when I'm thinking of something I'd rather not think about anymore. Fairly a frequent experience nowadays.

I can do this. I've been at this since Thursday. I've worked hard. Something will come out of all that hard work. If shit happens anyway, well, people can all say that it is my fault for being stubborn. I will not put it against them. But I can say that I didn't give up that easily. And if shit happens, well, shit happens.

I hope it doesn't though. Oh please do not happen.

Here's to the last week of my psychiatry posting.

Bring it on. please be kind?

yoroshiku onegaishimasu

akunona

also, fuck lj for not being accessible at times like these.

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Hello. I'm here. Taking some time to finally write an update. Just to show my future self when I trawl the older post buttons that, in May, I was actually stupid enough to write a post when I should have been studying. Or something.

Four weeks in, next week. Psychiatry posting. It has changed my views on psychiatry, that's for sure but sadly, I still don't really like it. It's kind of too abstract and subjective. Even for medicine. So yeah. Psychodynamics is interesting though. But that's not something we do. It would make a very interesting intellectual argument however. I was actually tempted to write an entry about existentialism and the defense mechanisms, because it really is interesting. I mean, how can something threaten your existence so much that you run away to a different reality all together? How can wanting something so much, but not being able to achieve it results in having a skewed perception of reality. How can some experiences be so harrowing a you have to bury it deeper and deeper and in some cases, just run away all together? All very interesting questions. And not something that I can answer. I just find myself recently having a new kind of respect for all the "crazies" we see on the roads and everywhere. They're just really, really sick, you know? Here's to advances in psychiatry. Not me though. I'm not touching this stuff again after I finish here. Unless I absolutely have to.

What have I been doing? Three case presentations, am writing/translating a paper in which I also have to do a presentation for next week (this week), studying for exams on the fifth week. I miss having lectures. Weird, but I always have been rather academical.

Anyway, like the background? Messing with your eyes, and increasing your minus, akunona.

On more lighter news, Arashi is releasing the Dome DVD for their "kimi to boku" concert on the 15th of June. Which I have secured (YATTA). And a new album called "Beautiful World" and an ensuing tour in which some proceeds will be donated towards the Tohoku earthquake fund. Lots more information on that but I am currently disinclined to write about it. Everyone already knows about it anyway :D. Just that, Arashi, thank you for being sort of epic. Though I am currently cheating on you and listening to KAT-TUN albums. XD

Ah well, to do some studying. If I can.

Maybe not.

we'll see

akunona


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