Heart's All Gone

*Waves through the dust which has accumulated through my life*

Hi. I just realized that this coass thing has really cut into my blogging life. Not that I actually blog all that much in the first place. So yeah. You can probably guess what that does now.

So anyway. Ramadhan has begun. Last week to be exact. Alhamdulillah for another chance. let this year be better than the last. And there maybe a possibility that my family, I mean my entire close family, will be coming here at the end of ramadhan and we'll be celebrating Raya Aidilfitri together here in Jakarta. 

You cannot believe how happy I am about this.

So I had my laptop repaired again yesterday. At the same place because the guys seemed nice. Even though I had the vague feeling of being cheated anyway. But hey. I had to have my keyboard replaced now. As you know, my keyboard was being ridiculous and typing different letters every time I typed certain letters. That was not very conducive to paper writing. Which is something that I had to do. So yeah, had to have it replaced. Because paper writing. Sheesh. Also random homework set by really evil consultants. Eat my soul why don't you. I'm poor right now.

Oh, and then he said he liked a girl with hairy arms like mine. Uh, yeah. There is a first for everything. 

There's this song called "If I die young" by The Band Perry. And in the lyrics, there's a part that goes like this:

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lie me down in a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

That line. Right there. Sink me in the river at dawn. 

You know what came to mind? My forensics posting. So it's maybe just my brain but I immediately recalled  all the drowned bodies we had to autopsy. As romantic as that may sound and everything, really not the prettiest you'll ever look. And that smell. We could tell if there was a drowned body a mile away from the lab. Not pretty that. Really.  

So now that I've disgusted you all, have a nice day. I have that paper to write.

it's a song title

akunona 

and then, it died

"We got the halls boss!" 

 Hiya. I ain't dead yet. Though coming pretty close.

Lots of things happening. Babies being delivered and all that crap. You know. I'm gonna make this really short because my keyboard's wonky after I had it repaired the other day. Typing long paragraphs need more patience than I can spare right now. I'll have to get it repaired again soon. Right now, if I type, some other letter appears if I press certain ones. I am constantly editing this shit. Here's an example of an unedited sentence:

"hi my name ils nowna and i slike two draow becaulse i am bowred als aslls fuck.x"

guess which letters. The paranoid in me thinks its a ploy by making something else in my laptop not work, they're hoping to make more money of me. Sucks to them because I'm poor right now. Poor enough to put off repairs. A sad day.

So anyway, obstetrics is not fun business and I find myself actively loathing this shit. Like a slow burning hate kinda thing. Sometimes I feel fine. But then, there are days I look at the hospital and consider running in the opposite direction. Far, far away.

The picture above was drawn in a fit of creativity born from browsing peoples' deviant art accounts. And procrastination. Always procrastination. Somehow, I really want to do something like this. All the neon colors that I would never wear. I love Death Berry's colors and Flutter Shark's name. Wonder if I'll have the guts one day.

Back to the picture, it was drawn in mspaint directly on the base picture. To great hand cramps. I figure I'm going about it the hard way? But I like it. It's how I figured it out, so yeah. The original is a picture of me in scrubs standing in the OT at one of the various hospitals I've been posted. I drew on it, added that alien cat thingy to great amusement and voila, around three hours wasted. Ah well. You win some, you lose some. I didn't even realize so much time passed. Haha. If only I could emulate that same focus to studying :)

Anyway, that's all for today folks. I am this close to hitting my keyboard with a stick, so to avoid furthur property damage, I bid you Adieu.

killjoys be making noise

akunona