Sunday, June 27, 2010

iranai, zettai ni iranai

I went to TA today, for stress relief and also to buy some ingredients for hamburgers. I'm gonna try and make Japanese hamburgers or hanbaagu.

Keep in mind that my cooking history only consists of some fried rice that I forgot to season, sambal ikan bilis which was OK, instant foods which all you need to do is fry em, and cakes. But cakes don't really count because that's baking.

I don't know when I'm gonna attempt this. Sometime soon of course. But we have full classes tomorrow *moangroanrollover*

Wish me luck

So, in regards to the title, it means; I don't need it. I definitely don't need it. Or something like that.

Like I said, I went to TA. Before I went grocery shopping, I went window shopping I did say it was stress relieving trip.

So I went into this store, which I love. It sells the type of clothes I love but I've never bought anything because it's too expensive. Anyway, I was looking through the belts selection because incidentally, I do need a new belt and one really cute yellow belt caught my eye.

Ignore that it was yellow, that's another conversation all together, just keep in mind that it was cute. So I looked at the tag, thinking that surely a belt wouldn't be that expensive. Boy was I wrong

That belt, that cute, yellow belt, costRM80+.

Who needs a RM80+ belt?

My god. Though in terms of supply and demand, if there isn't a demand then there wouldn't be a supply right? So, people are actually buying this RM80+ belt.

I'm having trouble wrapping this around my head. But then again, I prefer buying CDs to downloading so who am I to say anything? Alright, shutting up about this now.

Anyway, I also went to that CD store I love so much and I found OTSUKA AI'S CONCERT DVD "Ai Am Best". OMG.!!!

I am squealing. But it's so expensive!!!! It costs Rp300k +. (and just now I was stressing over a RM80+ belt the irony is not lost on me thank you very much). But I want it!!! I really do. Argh. Thank god it wasn't Chatmonchy though. Chatmonchy I'd have bought then and there. I managed to put it down. Even though it hurts my heart to do so. No need to mention a certain five member idol group of course. They are in a league of their own.

Oh, and there was also KATTUN's Break The Record DVD. Again, KATTUN... not so much. ;)

One more thing that I don't get today, why the hell were there Japanese titled albums in the store? I mean, where do they get their stocks. Like suddenly there were titles in Katakana for Dream Theater's album. Or Celine Dion in Japan (written in Japanese). Where do they get their supplies?

Ah well.

All in all, a tiring day. My left calf kept cramping because it's been ages I've exercised this much. Hahaha... must rectify that.

myleghurtsonlynotsomuch

AkunOnA

Saturday, June 26, 2010

vocal exercises

I sometimes think you people just like to scream. A lot. Like, really. A lot

It's hilarious.

Anyway, cleaning my room. In the dead of night. It is wonderful. Because it's not as hot as day. Though I'm gonna finish tomorrow.

My comics are all organized by number and sell and keep piles. According to which I love reading the most and the ones, I like, but am probably going to sell sometime in the future.

I've been meaning to sell for ages. Anyone can tell me where in Jakarta Barat, can I sell these? Don't really care for the price. Just wanna get rid of em.

I have too many and not enough room.

Cleared up the mounds of notes and organized my work folder. It's funny that my format for writing up my reports haven't really changed as much through out the years. They just get more... meatier? as years progress. Well, the subjects are getting tougher.

Changed the posters on my wall. I don't like empty walls. But I'm not all that creative to decorate it like I've seen some people do, so, posters it is.

Now, garish red tuxedo wearing wet Arashi has been replaced in the box they came in and replaced with cool, hat wearing, come hither expressions making Arashi. Kakkoi~~<3<3<3 Any thing else? Screaming people are screaming at everything. It's cute, really. I wonder if our neighbors think someone's getting murdered on a daily basis? I kid, I kid...

Oh!! And another thing! I FOUND IT!!! I FREAKING FOUND IT!!! I know I don't throw important stuff away. I'm not that stupid. HAH.


coffeeanyone?

AkunonA

Friday, June 25, 2010

we are DONE

25th block is OVER!!!!

Let me give you some recaps of the week
  • Sunday: woke up with a start because, "OMG it's already too bright, I'm late. We have exams today. Fuck what time is it... Wait, it's fucking SUNDAY!!!" and I had already grabbed my towel to go bathe.
  • Woke up after only two hours of sleep because I needed to study. (but I went back to sleep anyway and kept waking up every hour. Quality rest, not so much) and the first thing I did was grab my book. =__=;;;
  • Pathology died on me
  • Obgyn broke my brain
  • Skills labs were however, oddly good
All in all. An awesome week. Blood, sweat and tears all around.

You do know sarcasm right? not like some people I know


ifyoudon'tgetthisihavelostfaithinhumanity

akuNona

Monday, June 21, 2010

in which i left my brain at the door

just came back from pathology exams.

I can safely say I failed. 8D

It's kinda awesome.

But in accordance with the amount effort I put in and the execution, it's pretty much a good match.

Meaning, I didn't study, thus it's not surprising if I fail.

I'm feeling oddly bittersweet. The truth is there, staring me in the eye, I accept it, and yet...

Denial. A little bit of silly hope. Do or die. Though in this case, I'm pretty much dead

No, I'm not high or anything, this is just my thought process right now.

It's not that I didn't try though. I started studying for this shit a week ago. Granted I didn't finish. And last night was an unmitigated disaster. And today was an outright catastrophe.

I'm not making much sense. Ah, well.

on to tomorrow.

and someone kicked it into the gutter...

AkunOnA

Saturday, June 19, 2010

because i am epic and some added notes of no particular worth


Happy 27th Birthday Nino!!

in more correct terms, I am epically late.

Though, to be fair, I didn't even want to make a post until after exam weeks. But;
a. I have a headache and I want to take my mind of off things
b. I sort of love this guy too much
c. I am just eternally bored

take your pick. There can never be a wrong answer

Anyway, Ninomiya Kazunari. I love you. Stay safe, stay happy, have a wonderful year. Good luck in everything, take care and drive safely when you finally can next year. <3<3<3


***

On another note, unrelated to fandom and random declarations of love and odd sentimentality, I hate exams. We are, as I have mentioned in the middle of exam weeks. Just finished one week, another one to go. Around 4 - 5 papers left to wade through and heaps of notes to read at least once and try to make heads or tails (or in some extra cases, added limbs) of.

I moan and groan and go through the motions.


And I've started listening to Pink Floyd. Mostly because I loved the beginning song in Ao no Honoo which, after some searching, I found out to be called "the post war dream" by Pink Floyd. I'm going on a limb and calling it the song of my childhood, Pink Floyd I mean. Which isn't all that wrong because my parents, especially my dad, is a fan. We used to put on their records a lot when I was small. So, I actually know some of their songs even if I don't recall the entire album. And the Beatles and Elton John.

I'm rather sorry to say that I only listen to songs because I like to listen to songs. I just love music. I don't search for any particular meaning. So this pretty much goes over my head. I hear legions of fans screaming blasphemy at me. Don't care. I like 'Another Brick in the Wall'. I've liked it since I was a kid.

Well, back to hitting the books. Literally.


Immakicksomeobgynassihope

AkunOnA



Monday, June 14, 2010

3 more days????


have a Neener

NINO WEEEEEEKKKKK!!!!!!

In three more days. :D

I may or may not be crazy for doing this at the eve (and during) exam weeks. But then again, I go through this *gestures wildly* every single exam week anyway.


Wait, I am.


ibetthatmadeasmuchsenseasithoughtitdid

AkuNonA

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Painfully



painfully, painfully homesick

oh to be under the bright, unrelenting and always welcoming Bottom Island sky.



AkunOna

p/s: have fun you two!!! stay safe. <3 x 100000000

Monday, June 07, 2010

Personals

Or some sort.

In short,


Name: Zulaika Zakaria
Age: 22
Hobbies: Being weird and hanging out with friends. Reading. And taking long walks at the beach ;) .
A little bit about me: I'm very kind, very helpful, a nice person all around. I'm loud and I am proud. I love my family and my friends. Currently still studying. I'm also the designated chauffeur. Get to know me. You won't be sorry. o_<>
. . . . ....


Ok, so I made that up.

Anyway. My best friend. Mademoiselle Zulaika Zakaria. She's honestly, really, really kind. One of the best person I've ever met and I've been to the North of Malaysia and straight across the sea to Indonesia. She's patient. (anyone who can stand me is a freaking saint in my book). Is maybe family oriented but her friends are very important as well. She can be really random. Like suddenly do something weird in the mall kind of random. But that just makes being with her a lot of fun. She used to be very forgetful of the stuff she's carrying that I used to hide them. (bad friend XD ). And she used to be very hard to wake up in the mornings. She's the only person who can make me laugh so much, water comes out my nose (only applicable if I am drinking at the time).

She took care of me. And I am eternally grateful for that.

So, she's SINGLE!!!!! (thus the personal ad. Lame yeah I know. the creative juices, they aren't really flowing tonight). BUT YOU GET THE GIST!!!

Come on people. She's wonderful. She's single. And she's looking.


And it's her BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZULAIKA!!! XOXOXOX


lamepostislamebutiloveyou

AKuNonA

p/s: miss zleka. if you have any additions, leave a comment and I'll edit and add it to the post. And I took the pictures from your facebook. I hope you don't mind and your friends don't kill me.




I wonder

if I have managed to ostracize just about everyone I know?

And yet, I can't manage to do anything about it. I'm apathetic to the point of actually being disconnected. Or should that be the other way around?

I wish I could take a break.



I've been thinking too much. Which, on another note, is quite interesting. There are undercurrents of thoughts running through my head going ".... inevitable abortion is when the cervix has already dilated, so it's happening no matter what you do, i wonder why everyone thinks I'm pretty much the bitch of the century? So, if this woman has had 3 consecutive abortions all during the first 22 weeks of pregnancy, it's called habitual abortion. Poor lady. Being pregnant is scary. They want to be pregnant all of them. Maybe I am strange. Can't blame them. Oh this song is positively horrid. I'm getting goosebumps...." . It goes everywhere! ::traumafaces::


Too many things to say, but I have no one neutral to say it to. :)


idon'tneedsomanygastriculcersthankyouverymuch

AkunOna

Saturday, June 05, 2010

of words

and you don't really know what life is
neither does anyone for that matter
the smell of coffee was sweet and warm, like lips on cold, cold skin
the sky was a startling shade of blue. only not so much
she can't see. she never could. not really. never really
even if the sky were to fall. I'd not let it fall on you
you feel the tears welling in the back of your eyes.
the unwelcome swelling in your throat and the deep, fathomless hole
gets a little bit deeper.
the rain fell. just like tears.
if everything is nothing than everything is you
the world has no answers
look for the questions
the sky's the limit, she cries, and spreads her arms before jumping
downdowndowndowndowndown.
spinning is merely going back to where you started.
she tasted like coffee. cheap instant coffee. and he was home
i'm not usually a romantic. but i'm just feeling melancholic
the rumble of the fan, pushing cool air on overheated skin
your face is something i'll never forget. it's too ugly
i love you too much to not hate every single thing you do
brown eyes and pink cheeks. lip corners turned up in a soft smile
green books, with black covers
the sky is a cemetery
light glints of the scattered pieces of glass, and droplets of red liquid
converge to become rivulets
that thing that you want to do the most
even your smile is a lie, so why not bullshit some more
the whisper of fabric against skin, as her skirt flows in the wind
she glows, iridescent.
dripdripdripdripdripdripdripdrip
sense is a something that's not really all that worth making
and even then, and even then, she is hopeful
his skin seemed to glow orange as they passed under a streetlamp
headlights shine in the distance
and the buildings were like scattered stars
fireworks crisscrossed under her skin
his face fell and everything suddenly felt ultimately, irrevocably wrong
and the ground disappeared from under his feet
laughter bubbled from her lips
and even if the world didn't make much sense, they didn't care
because the world makes less sense every single day

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

To be free???

Another new single?

Only one song + instrumental + pv????

Man, Johnny, you really know how to milk em hard.

And we're the suckers aren't we?


arashifantilltheend

::akunona::

of behavior

i seem to detect a pattern.

Recently, every time something seriously pisses me off, i sit back and smile. Like real, honest to god smile. I grin, laugh and might even giggle. All the spectrum of emotion depicting some sense of contentment or joy.

It's rather..... weird?

Recently, we went to celebrate some friends' birthday at an all you can eat restaurant. There were 21 of us in the party and some of us had arrived as early as 3.30 pm and all of us stayed until 7.30 pm.

Yeah, i know, i don't know what we ate either.

But that's not the point. The point is, that they gave us seats that apparently had been reserved. So, approaching the reserved time, they tried to get us to leave. There was even surreptitious (not) whispering of the waiting staff beside our table .

And we haven't even had cake yet!!!

Anyway, when I came back, we had all been moved to the next table. A table for eight, seating 21. Cramped, innit?

We negotiated and had them give us another free table. Because, dude, we be payin' customers. And it's their fault. We didn't even know that the tables had been reserved. But the manager/waitress in charge was clearly pissed off and spent the whole time clearing the table for us to sit slamming plates and cutlery together. I mean, yeah, she obviously used everything she had learnt in her service/hospitality training class that day.

So yeah, I was pissed off. Here we are, paying customers of an apparently quite high-class restaurant, and because of their mistake, they're pissed off at us. So, I sat at the table the lady was clearing, smiled at her, and said thanks.

Every time the lady passed by our table, I looked at her, tried to catch her eye, and smiled.

There was even once, a taxi driver who apparently didn't appreciate having to drive us to a near destination (near as it is, it isn't walkable) and didn't want to help us with our bags. Neither did he deem it worth the time to respond to our attempts at conversation. So, after we had cleared all the bags from the car, I said "thank you" and smiled. He responded with a "youp!!!"

Now, I am pissed off and what did I do? I smiled. Laughed. And sang a song.

I am not happy.

I am pissed off.

My god sarcasm is dead.


thoushaltnotputaknifeinasinkfullofwater

AkuNonA