scaredy cat

Because the unknown is really, really scary.

So what's new? Well, I'm off to Depok again. Though now for internal medicine. And at a different hospital. People are saying that it's going to be fine and all, but still, as my first major posting, this is kind off daunting. Almost finished packing, some stuff that I'm still using are out, but that's it. I'll throw it in my luggage when I'm done and almost out the door probably.

Here come sleepless nights?

Heading out around noon, insyaAllah. The kos/kontrak has been confirmed. I think. If not, then yeah. Die lah, us. Still have to negotiate the entire rent though. There is a rather sad trend of overcharging for non-local people. Happens everywhere, I know. Still, sad, sad fact. We aren't made of money and coins, people.

I am scared, I admit. It's always the same feeling. Fear of the unknown, of some sorts. Because, yeah, we really don't quite know what we're supposed to be doing. But apparently, that's what the first week is for. Acclimatization. Getting used to new hospital = new rules. New behavioral patterns we have to adapt to. It's all fun.

InsyaAllah, to a good, educational, fun 10 weeks in internal medicine.

packing is such a drag

akunona

It was either this or the cat ...

So, last week in psychiatry. New postings came out yesterday and I'm off to Depok again but at a different hospital, doing Internal Medicine. Now's the time to see if I really want this. If I'm cut out for this, if I can do it. I like internal medicine. We'll see if I end up still liking it. Like, I liked psychiatry when I learnt it in class, I like talking/discussing stuff about psychodynamics, really interesting, I just don't really like psychiatry anymore. If you can understand any of that, wonderful.

I finished my exams Tuesday. I was assigned a rather difficult patient. Difficult because he didn't want to talk with me at all, and in psychiatry, it's the interview that counts. We got off on the wrong foot and everything, but I didn't want to ask for a new case. My stubbornness can be legendary. So, I stuck with him. Approached him for so many days the nurses at his ward know me by name. After all that, I managed a decent rapport. Not sure if I aced the exam but at I don't think I did too bad on my case. We had a harder time with the other guy's case. Good god, that case. We answered to the best of our knowledge, but damnit...

So anyway, he's a nice kid. I wish him all the best.

So next 10 weeks at Depok. We'll see how it goes. Unimportant fact, we finish a day after my birthday. I think I should start studying, I will. Maybe. Some time later.

I don't know what I got for this posting. May I get a good mark, insyaAllah.



In other news, while reading a stupid post on tumblr (I trawl, I do not have) I almost made another argument on existentialism and life. Oh my god my brain. Let's drown it in senseless drivel.

oh yeah,

HAPPY NINO MONTH PEOPLE!

akunona