Thursday, December 30, 2010

ah, the internet

how it influences the lives of many.


utanlolface

This is my brother. He is doing the lol-face as seen on internet memes and forums and shit abound.
Whether it looks like the emoticon or not, is not the problem. The problem is that I have never drawn something that I wanted to punch so much. And in the middle of the drawing, somehow, the expression turned into "fear". I don't know either, I wasn't exactly keeping records.

Time: 2-3 hours, give or take half an hour.
Tools: 2B pencil and eraser
Reference used.


I was planning to do a whole "emotions" kind off series. And this is the response I get when I say "Give me a face" to my siblings while aiming the camera viewfinder at them. Ah well. I should have probably been more specific.


carbonbased

akunona

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Verily, it is danger

Aibacchi. Because you are awesome, I spent 20 minutes thinking up what it is that I would like to say to you on this day.
It should have been yesterday, I know, since yesterday was your day. But I've been in a slump lately. I have no idea why though.

And so, Aiba-chan.

Happy birthday Aiba Masaki.

May you have a wonderful year. May you stay awesome and happy and all sunshiny and stuff. I love you and wish you all the best in your coming drama. Don't forget to eat regularly and rest when you can.


***

In other news, I have been home for three days and being home is awesome. So very, very awesome. I don't want to leave ever again. You can't make me!!!


Aibababye

akunona

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Hit me

For I am bringing my Forensics text book back home with me.

yeah....

Not really saying I'm gonna be reading it though. There is a difference between placing it in your luggage and actually taking it out to read it.

Going home for christmas and new year's holiday today! ~
Currently waiting for the taxi to come and pick me up to go to the airport. Yeay.


Bismillah. Semoga perjalanan nona selamat dan dipermudahkan urusan nona hari ini. :)


bottom island
akunona


Monday, December 20, 2010

So long, and thanks for all the stress ulcers

Exams they are over!!!

For the time being anyway.

So, yeah.... Managed to live through my OSCEs only to get brutally murdered on my Integration 2 test. Yes, it is my fault for not studying. Yes, I realize that whining about it is futile. No, I do not care.

I do not think that I have ever sucked so much at an exam as I have sucked in this one. Yes, the syntax is lame, don't blame me, my brain is half dead from being flogged for answers. There were 100 questions to be answered in 100 minutes and I have no idea what I answered for more than half of them. It's really quite epic.


Blok 30 started this morning because my university is a sadist. It looks daunting but the subject matter looks really interesting. Yes, I am geek. Hear me bleep robot noises.
Received the books this afternoon and yep, can't see when I'm gonna read them, but I know I'll have to. The best one? Peraturan perundang-undangan Bidang Kedokteran. Thin book, but deadly.

Yeah, whatever. I'm gonna go get dinner. Apparently I'm hypoglycemic enough to not make sense. Wait? Did that ever matter before?


they were exceptionally lovely this year

akunona

Friday, December 10, 2010

headaches are daily fare

You know you should go and get a life when you find yourself looking at your antibacterial facial foam (the cheap kind) and wondering if over usage can cause resistancy.

Yep. trufax....

Anyway.

I do no want to talk about OSCEs. I refuse to be fucked up by this.

It's next Friday by the way.

And in between we have some classes and a test. I think.

See me not giving a damn.

I hate my life right now.

Can I go home?

I seriously hate this right now.

I'm having almost daily study sessions with friends and in my years of academical experience, this is my first study group.

I don't do study groups. Never have before this.


I read somewhere that You are defined by the things you think you will never do.

huh

making as much sense as my notes right now

akunona

Monday, December 06, 2010

For you

I was gonna play this and sing it. But because I am fail to the max, I can't figure out the chords to it nor are there any chords for this song on the net.

It's a Japanese song, so you might not like it ( I'm kinda sure you won't anyway, but hey ).

But please, listen and read the translations. It's kinda pretty.




Care by Akanishi Jin

Ignore the video though. Just listen to the song and read the translations.

Romaji Care

Nareai to uso no naka de bukiyou na ai seoi
Jikan ni oware iya ni natteta hi ni
Sukoshi jiyuu kanjita

Ato nannen ka sureba omoide ni naru dakara
Wasure kaketeta kioku to ima wo futo kasanete mitanda

Taisetsu na mono kakae sugite aruki zuraku natta kyou

Itsu datte bokura kitto dare datte
Kanashimi ya yowasa ikutsumo hiki tsurete
Taore kakatatte fumi dasu chikara wo
Kitto soko niwa naita bun no egao ga matteru

Sugiteku hibi de nanika miushinai kaketa
Sonna fuu ni sou jibun no hou kara
Tsunaida te wo hodokenai you ni

Tatoeba kimi ga kizu tsuita to emo
Dare no ai datte nando mo iro wo kaeru
Tsukarete boku ni yorikakaru hi wa
Donna kimi demo dakishimeru kara

Itsu datte bokura kitto dare date
Kanashimi ya yowasa ikutsumo hiki tsurete
Taore kakatatte fumi dasu chikara wo
Kitto soko niwa naita bun no egao ga matteru
Jibun wo shinjite

Care translation

Amid conspiracies and lies I carry this clumsy love
On days when I was pushed for time and hated it
I felt a little freedom

In a few years this will be a memory, so
I suddenly tried to put now together with the memories I was beginning to forget

Today I’m carrying so many precious things that it’s hard to walk

Surely all of us are always
Carrying around countless sadnesses and weaknesses
Even if you’re about to collapse, have the courage to keep walking
Surely as many smiles as the tears you’ve shed are waiting for you

As days went by I lost sight of something
I hope I never be let go
Of your hand like that

Even if, for example, you get hurt
Everyone’s love changes its colours countless times
On days when you get tired and lean on me
I’ll hold you, however you are

Surely all of us are always
Carrying around countless sadnesses and weaknesses
Even if you’re about to collapse, have the courage to keep walking
Surely as many smiles as the tears you’ve shed are waiting for you
Believe in yourself






famously bad with words

akunona

Thursday, December 02, 2010

Split personalities

When one half of you is objectively viewing the situation, planning appropriate responses and reactions while the other half is crying and laughing and angry and sad and scared and dissapointed and so, so, fucking weirded out.

I am going to go to bed.
Where for at least 5 hours, I will forget this.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

there is a method to this insanity

Yesterday, there was a cockroach in the toilet.
It had somehow ended up on its back on the toilet floor by the door, its wet wings pinning it, making it unable to turn over. Though I have no idea if a cockroach on its back could normally turn over or not.

I finally realized it was there just as I was about to exit. Not really wanting to kill it, I stepped over it and went back to my room.

Later that same day, I went to the toilet again.

And the cockroach was still there. Still on its back. Legs still waving feebly in the air.

Feeling somehow weird, I sprayed it with water towards the drain. And somehow, inexplicably, its legs must have caught at the edge of the drain and it managed to pull itself right side up. I stopped spraying, taking advantage, the cockroach scrambled up the shower place thing, towards the large bucket we keep there and stayed behind it.

The drain was closed anyway. It wouldn't have fallen through.

So I named it Totchan. After the toilet.

Totchan was still there when I went to brush my teeth. He just stayed there quietly (somehow, my brain started calling Totchan, 'he').

"Don't look, Totchan," I said to him in my brain.
"How are you doing anyway?"

-silence-

"Oh, ok."
"Don't worry, I won't squish you. Just tell your family to please keep out of my room, ok? Thanks Totchan."

Totchan was still there in the toilet when I went to take a bath this morning.

I accidently washed him away not knowing he was there. He ended up struggling in the water before reaching the bucket and holding on to it so he wasn't swept away.

He gave me a scare because I thought he was a centipede.

"Sorry Totchan. Didn't see you. And you seriously scared me."


Totchan isn't there anymore.


I hope no one squished him.


i just don't know what it is yet

akunona


p/s: True story? Made up? Totchan knows.

p/p/s: I'll make it through this. I kinda like the challenge. If only I can convince my brain
.

Monday, November 29, 2010

where's that pause button?

Because I need a breather.
So, so bad.

Don't be a medical student. What ever you do. Use your exemplary SPM results on something else.
Just a piece of advice.

I am running a headache. It's a fairly common occurrence now.

We have OSCEs next week. Yaaaayyyy!!!
We have integration this Wednesday and Skill Lab tests of Friday. YAAAAAYYYY!!!!

Either way, I have to go to Husada tomorrow. For a class.

I don't really want to think about this anymore, but yeah.

It's what I do.

I have no idea why I keep on assuming leader positions. I don't even really like being leader. But rather than let everything meander, I suppose.

I don't think they like it though.

Maybe they're thinking I'm just doing it for the glory.

I'm not.

This may be just my paranoia speaking.

Ignore it. It's stressed over exams.

Ah well. I should try to get some studying done.


pause/stop/rewind

akunona

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Aidiladha


SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA


2nd time sambut hari raya aidiladha dekat rumah ni. Gambar adalah gambar masjid depan rumah. Dari semalam takbir. :)
Tahun ni berkorban apa?


extra pic:


On Friday last week. Before exam Integrasi 28.



bau kambing busuk

akunona

Friday, November 12, 2010

I see fairies

That has nothing to do with what I am writing of course. It's just a quote from the singer I'm listening to right now.

Anyway.

Finished.

For the time being anyway. We have HER on Monday and people are starting to post OSCE cases on the facebook group.

I feel like my head's about to burst. It will be very pretty. Kinda like fireworks only with blood and bits of gray matter, CSF and skull fragments.

Yeeeahhh, ignore that.


I whine too much. So, have a vaguely creative post.

I made Aqilah a birthday card a while back. Her birthday was on November 3rd. We had a surprise party and everything. Though it was really, really early.

Anyway, see my creative brain vomit:

the envelope

a rainbow on Fiqi's page. I'm childishly proud of how I made this, I have no idea why


the rather theme-less cover. I just started sticking on sequins without any previous plans



my page.


basically what I did was staple some paper together to make a booklet with two pages for each girl + cover and wish page. It was really fun doing it. This was the reason I did not study during the first week of this block. I had too much fun playing art school cut and paste. Because the colored papers I bought was pastel-ly, it had to be a rather cutesy theme. I did everyone's pages and asked them to add whatever they wanted to make it more 'them' or something. But I think I got everyone's personality right.

We even got weird photos of us taken with this large glasses I borrowed of a friend. At least, we were supposed to be making weird faces. We did not exactly accomplish this.

Anyway... Pretty fun project. Maybe I'll do something like this again.


I still have a bunch of sequins

akunona


Thursday, November 11, 2010

head way, I am not making any

my notes:

Tissue interactions (to laser) was considered merely as transformation of light energy into thermal energy. Destroys pathological tissue by causing coagulation, vaporization, ablation, and cutting. Known as Thermal Effect.
1967 - Observation of hair growth after laser irradiation in depilated mice. Discovery of Laser Biostimulation. Laser non-thermal effect. Usage of Low Power Laser Irradiation


I wrote in the margins:

Dulu, pikir ade thermal effect jek. DESTRUCTIVE - THERMAL EFFECT... BURN IT WITH FIRE!!! Tibe2, tgk ade Biostimulation effect oh noeesss!!! NON THERMAL EFFECT. *le gasp*


my notes are sarcastic. *facepalm* figures yeah? I have loads of anecdotes in my margins. Some make less sense than others.
This is my way of making studying interesting. May not be useful to anyone else but me.


Back to hitting the books. I am not making any head way. Did I already say that? Yeah. I said it TWICE. You will know my pain.


exams. kill. me

akunona

p/s: I remember I wrote a note about glomerular filtration where I wrote: "So, one day OO guy and OO guy discovered glomerular filtration and proceeded to destroy me life -- followed by details of glomerular filtration" during my matriculation years. I am so geek my brain hurts.
p/p/s: I abuse too many exclamations marks.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I am only as sarcastic as you are stupid

So, today we had what was most possibly the longest day ever, filled with various people talking. Most of them, about the same thing. And some not even really making sense.

The organizational skills of my university. I am in awe of it.

What the fuck were they thinking when they started the whole integration system? Granted, it's a pretty awesome idea. It's what PBL is supposed to be. But you don't just wake up one day and decide:

"Hey you know what guys, lets change the current system to an Integrated system! Without any previous planning or trials!"

And so, now, they have no idea how to calculate our marks. And they are formulating a formula. And all that. Supposedly to form a formula most useful and beneficial to us students. Not that I'm not grateful, I just expected you to have done this before you changed the system.

Planning skills. My university has never heard of it?

And today, in an awesome display of my university's amazing organizational skills time was wasted. If they had done this properly, it wouldn't have come to that you know? A lot of people needn't have missed lunch. I would call it an elementary decision but apparently, not everyone thinks so. At least they don't think so. A joint is class, is joint, fucktards.

My university likes to complicate really simple stuff.

So, now, thanks to my university's amazing skills of organization and planning, I have to take the HER paper (something like a remedial paper if you failed the real test, to help you, of course), without knowing if I passed the real test or not, that I have to study for, because my conscience won't let me not study for the damn thing. Which I count as a waste of my time.

Of course, it's all for our good. It's all for our sake. You love us, so much. So, so much.
"I am in awe of your organizational skills.
I am struck speechless by your organizational skills.
I am on my knees, begging, to learn your organizational skills."

you are honestly, really, really stupid

akunona

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Ashita wo mezashite - TOKIO

So I did this. Tagged by my sister on facebook but I'm posting here instead.

RULES :

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,

no matter how silly it sounds!

Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4. Ok, go!

5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note,

and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

The answer to #20 is the Title of your note



1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

Ryuusei ha oto mo naku - Ryuusei no kizuna soundtrack (Soundless shooting stars??)



2. How would you describe yourself?

All I Wanted - Paramore


3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

The D-motion - KAT-TUN


4. How do you feel today?

Stand By Me - The Brilliant Green


5. What is your life’s purpose?

Baby Love - F.T Island


6. What's your motto?

Once Again - Arashi


7. What do your friends think of you?

My Girl - Arashi


8. What do you think of your parents?

Lyla - Oasis


9. What do you think about very often?

Purple Line - Tohoshinki


10. What is 2 + 2?

Paretto - Arashi (Palette, as in, color palette)


11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Heart Goes Boom - Hisaka Youko (Mio- K-On).. Because I love you.


12. What do you think of the person you like?

The Bird and the Worm - Owl City. If you've ever listened to the song, it's rather fitting ;)


13. What is your life story?

Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park


14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Bitter Heart - Zee Avi... Hope not.


15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Love Rainbow - Arashi


16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Hey Pretty - Poe



17. What will they play at your funeral?

Hoshi ga furu yoru demo - V6.. means "Even the night the stars fall..." which is rather sweet.


18. What is your biggest fear?

The Trial - Pink Floyd... not far from the truth that.


19. What is your biggest secret?

RPG - Chatmonchy... Role Playing Game. Hahaha. Or am I?


20. What will you post this as?

Ashita o Mezashi te! - TOKIO... Aiming for tomorrow.

Actually, I want to tomorrow to be next week because we have exams. OH NOESSSSS!!!!


Jya, ganbarimasu. Watashi ha issha ni narun dakara.


Is that even correct? I have no idea

facing the books

akunona

Sunday, October 31, 2010

I want a new fan

For my room. Because it's hot. And my fan does not rotate. And my fan keeps falling from it's perch that the next time it does, I am convinced it'll break in three.

I am also so broke, my bank account echoes. But ignore that. That's life. We make sacrifices. And if it means being in Malaysia with my mom and my siblings, then I am willing.

I also have work to do, so I really should not be doing this. But you know how, this feels don't you? Every student (except the painfully abnormal ones) know how this feels. Dread at not finishing before the deadline and yet too lazy to even look at it yet and kinda rebelling (fruitlessly) at everything expected of you.

I don't want to think about all this but, then again, I am right now. That's why I'm typing this, right?

I have a load of shit to do.

I need references oh my god. I NEED REFERENCES. WHY ARE THERE NO REFERENCES??? HOW THE HELL DO YOU GO ABOUT MAKING THESE SCENARIOSSS???

I swear my lecturers are sadistic. They enjoy seeing us squirm. And right now, I have the bad luck of being in the group currently targeted.

I obviously cannot work under speculation!!! It's fucking speculation!!! I need proof! This is a scientific report! (it should be, but the way this is going, it's looking like a Bahasa Melayu essay.)

That was a sudden lapse in sanity. It happens.

This week looks daunting. Serves you right for not studying since the first week. Believe it or not, I start studying in the first week of every block, take it easy in the second and start picking up in the third before going all out in the fourth. The system is fairly adjustable for 5 or 6 weeks blocks, no problem. But this time around? I haven't kept up with anything since the first week, going into the second and only got some decent studying for the first time since the start of this block last night.

Yeah, yeah you say, here you go, whining again. I feel somehow, I am entitled.

It's cathartic, you know.

Also, OSCE in a months time. Am I scared? Yes. Am I studying? A little. Am I ready? Hell no.

I am scared.


And another thing, I hate this block. Like very much.

Very, very much. Bleagh


israndomlyangryatyou

akunona

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sengal

So...
So...
Payah sangat ke nak cakap straight dekat muka?
Kenapa nak kena cakap dekat belakang?
Tak puas hati, terus nyatakan?
Apa korang takde mulut?
Takde otak sendiri?

Sedih tengok hypocrisy korang.
Bukannya apa sangat lah. Mungkin tak puas hati sekejap, pastu simpan and then lepaskan pada sesi penganyaman ketupat.
Aku paham jugak. Perasan tu, aku pun pernah ada.
Aku bukannya baik nak mampus. Aku pun pernah buat. Balasan kat diri sendiri kot.

Atau mungkin memang korang tak suka, tapi korang berlakon boleh terima. Senyum, tegur bila jumpa, jalan pegang tangan and gelak ramai-ramai. Lambai tangan walaupun jarak adalah sekaki dua, konon happy nampak. Tapi dalam hati, sendiri je yang tau. Nanti kumpul gang, lepas ramai-ramai. Hari ni dia buat apa. Esok dia buat apa. Bukak cerita dua tahun lepas. Kitorang memang tak suka engkau, tapi nak buat macam mana, kau kawan dengan kawan kitorang, kitorang kena lah kawan dengan kau. Nanti orang cakap apa pasal kitorang?

Kalau nak kawan semata-mata nak jaga muka kau sendiri, kenapa nak kawan?

Adat melayu ke? Asyik kena jaga hati orang? Aku dah malas lah. Maybe sebab tu aku jadi macam ni?

Yelah ek? Semua salah aku. Tapi minta maaf seribu kali minta maaf. Aku tak nak dah jadi pelakon drama dalam dunia epic korang tu. Aku nak jadi aku jelah eh?

Kalau tak suka pegi mampos.


penglepasan perasaan tanpa had

akunona

kalau aku tipu korang pun sape yang tau? biar je lah ak sorang2.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

my module is open in front of me

and yet I am not reading it.
Ok, so I am. I started at around erm, 9 o'clock and it is now 11. I am only at page three of a 19 page note.

Yeaaaahhhhhh.
It's occupational medicine if you're interested in knowing. Occupational medicine studies diseases that are caused by work related factors, though, no pressure on the diseases. The causes are more important here. Ways to improve productivity by improving the work environment and all that.

I'mma thinking why these rules can't be applied to students?
Not a very interesting block, sorry.

I finished a project yesterday. After working on it for two days. It was supposed to be a rush job. But the thing got delayed till next week, so, all that rushing for nothing.

In other news, my life is still not that interesting and I only get piqued up at a conversation when it's about medicine. See my life? I am so nerd.

I need to get my language straight because apparently I'm speaking a very odd mixture of Malaysian, Indonesian and English. And writing it; as I can see from my notes in class. I do not make any sense to myself.

Also, hi there my old love, I'm sorry for cheating on you with 5 hot Japanese guys.


dan radcliffe why so hot?

akunona

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

either way

I am bored and tonight I didn't study. Hah. Take that.

I was looking through my not app on facebook and came across this note. I did last year and thought, meh, since I'm so bored. let's juts make a 2010 version. This shall be long. Because I have not figured out how to make a cut on blogger.

100 (are they really?) truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: plain water (yes, I do drink other things than coffee)
2. Last phone call: Dad
3. Last text message: Aqilah
4. Last song you listened to: Spirit by V6
5. Last time you cried: around last week I think?

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: no
7. Been cheated on: no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Yellow
13. Blue
14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: i don't think so
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yep :)
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: my mom
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: a rough estimation would be less than 50%
23. How many kids do you want?: 4
24. Do you have any pets: I want a cat.
25. Do you want to change your name: no. Because my name is me
26. What did you do for your last birthday: eat ice cream with bread and wathed "Get Smart" with the girls
27. What time did you wake up today : 5.30+am
28. What were you doing at midnight: studying for tests
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my life as a student to end
30. Last time you saw your Mother: around 1 month ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: To be more spontaneous
32. What are you listening to right now : Chou by V6 ( i have my Johnny's playlist on)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: not that I remember
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? : my fan broke in two. What?
35. Most visited webpage: livejournal
36. Whats your real name: I'm not saying
37. Nicknames: Nona, anonaanaga, nunu
38. Relationship Status: single. kareshi ga dekitaindesuyo
39. Zodiac sign: The mighty and egoistical Leo
40. Male or female?: Female. I check everyday
41. Primary School?: Kg Tengah
42. Secondary School?: SMK Seri Tualang
43. High school/college/university?: Ukrida
44. Hair colour: naturally black
45. Long or short: short is short hair
46. Height:151cm.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Not currently
48: What do you like about yourself?: physically tiny, mentally unhinged. ;D (this was my answer last time, but I'm leaving it because I kinda like it)
49. Piercings: Ears. But I wanted to pierce my lips once.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty. Meaning I am left brain dominant.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: haven't had one yet. Let's keep it that way yeah?
53. First piercing: My ears.
54. First best friend: is awesome sauce
55. First sport you joined: netball in primary but I never got the ball because I'm seriously bad at sports. The only sport I like are martial arts and running.
56. First vacation: I don't remember
58. First pair of trainers: Remind I should buy a new pair soon.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Nothing. It's midnight. Not exactly healthy to be eating something now.
60. Drinking: Nothing.
61. I'm about to: Go to sleep after I finish this.
62. Listening to: Will by V6
63. Waiting on: the end of these lot of questions.

YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: Normal kids
65. Get Married?: I want to.
66. Career?: Doctor then, lecturer.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Same age or Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Perfect Bo-deh.
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: A logical thinking person would be nice

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: There is no way I'd do that
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes. Loads of times. ;)
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: I don't think so
82. Been arrested: I'm a good kid.
83. Turned someone down: In what context?
84. Cried when someone died: Yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes ;)
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: I sing everyday
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Not that I know off.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Before I came here, so I could really think about what the fuck I was getting myself into.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day I went home. Because then, I'd be home.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Technically no.




If you've made it here, congratulations. Give yourself a bat on the back. If you can't reach it, pat your knee.
After reading most of these that I had done, I find that I'm almost always studying. There is nothing else that I do. OMG. Life, I do not have it.

Anyone know of anymore of these that I can do, kindly point me to them. I'm really that bored.

Hope this was slightly entertaining. I am of the bed.


oyasumi

Akunona

Sunday, October 17, 2010

third time's not the charm


see anything weird?

Hint, it's in two pieces.

This is already the third one I bought since I started living here. I am probably gonna shell out more cash soon. I need a miracle.

And maybe a bottomless bank account.

And, guess what, IT STILL WORKS!!!!

I can't put it on rotate though. And I have to move around it really carefully and around my room really carefully so that I don't upset the careful balance of gravity and pure luck.

Also, it has been proven, yet again. There is a first time for everything.


i swear i didn't kick it or anything

akunona

Friday, October 15, 2010

that's what you think

Exams have been pushed back to Monday. We are having a three day weekend. All the people out there who have not finished reading up the subject material can now rejoice and go watch a movie or drama or mindless entertainment of your choice.

Not saying that I am not one of them.

But I still don't like it. There goes my weekend which I had thought to spend with hanging out at malls, doing nothing in particular. Now my weekend will see me sitting at home, doing nothing in particular.

I actually had prepared myself for staying up until the wee hours of the morning to study you know? Took a nap in the afternoon, finished up the smaller notes and drew up a table in my head. Yes, I am that nerdy. But that is beside the point.

The point is, my University is weird. After three years, it only continues to get weirder. I am morbidly fascinated at how weird it can get.

Though when you break it down, it's all just organizational problems.

Drama, Ukrida has it.

Anyway, I decided to take things slow and read as I go along. Maybe we'll go out next week

In other news, I want a boyfriend. So I can bully him into going with me to the mall. Walking by yourself is lonely, ya kno...

weirdismyuniversity

akunona


ps: the last post is read:

are?
what are you saying?
I don't understand.
-heart-
akunona

Thursday, October 14, 2010

あれ?





何を言っているのですか?


分かりません

<3


アクノナ

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Have fan art


Very blurry fan art. Drawn with pencil then colored because I recently bought myself a new box and it's just crying out to be used.

Also, Tekkon Kinkreet. Watch it. Now

anshin, anshin

akunona

p/s: it has no connection to the fact Nino voiced Kuro. Really. It's that good.

What have you done?

Let's see, nothing much really
  • eat
  • sleep
  • read a few lines of my notes then go on the internet for a couple of hours
  • eat
  • sleep
  • and nurse my sometimes aching throat
Yep. Nothing much really

Right now, I am... discontent. With a lot of things but airing out grievances is something I shall save for a later date. Not any of that business here today.

I want to talk to somebody right now, but even if I called them, I have no idea what I'd talk about. Talking about my studies is only so much. And it's a boring topic.

I've wanted to blog something for days, but apparently doing nothing got in the way.

Oh yeah, we did Rai's birthday last week. Her birthday was on October 5th but we only managed to do it on the 6th. Everyone seems busy except for me. Or maybe it's just that I'm better at ignoring deadlines. She liked the presents I think. Of which I am glad.

So, Happy Birthday Rai. A lot late here, but hey.

Have a picture from our Crazy Moon + Troublemaker performance some time ago.

In other news, Nona hates your guts. But rather than bother you people with all this, she's just gonna keep it inside. Because, she can't be bothered. She has so many things to do (like doing nothing). She is also talking in the third person.

Go figure.

I'm not crying, my Lacrimal glands are just hyper-secreting

akunona

Saturday, October 02, 2010

this is your friendly neighbourhood workaholic speaking

I am still in a very relaxed mood.
Still very lazy to start my work again. So I'm taking the day off.
I feel that I deserve at least a day.
I'll start my report tomorrow. InsyaAllah. It's due Friday anyway, so, I need to get it done by Wednesday at the latest. OMG

Anyway, I was reading a manga just now. In the manga, the main character was reading a manga. One called "Sepatte Takuro" shortened to "SepaTaku". They then started talking about how awesome that manga was. How their favorite attack was named "The Scissors Kick" and how it was so creative of the manga-ka to think up a game that combined volley ball and football (soccer).

Then in the note accompanying the manga, the translator started saying that this "Sepatte Takuro" seemed like a made up name, for a made up sport, as far as he/she knew.

I burst a gut laughing.

They were talking about Sepak Takraw.

The translator, proceeded to correct the mistake in the next chapter, but they still owe me a new gut from laughing.

I know, I know, nerd alert. ;9

Made me wonder about the Sepak Takraw scene in Japan. And it seems that the game itself is still known as "Sepak Takraw". Which is kinda amazing, really.

I bought a crank up music box yesterday. Though, not really a box is it? It plays "Here comes the sun" which is kinda awesome. They had a bunch of Beatle songs. I was mulling between "Hey Jude" and "Here comes the sun".

Nothing much new in life. I am thinking up some stuff, but that shall remain a secret.

Either way, I hope it goes well.

onlyshe'snotreallyworking

AkunoNA

Friday, October 01, 2010

genetically speaking...

we just had our first exam in the new system. 40 multiple choice questions in 40 minutes. Starts as soon as you sit down in the hall.

Not exactly as hard as I expected it to be. Maybe because it's still the first one? We have another one in two weeks. Our "Integration 2" paper.

The questions were case based, not dissimilar to the integration papers we used to take every block before this.

I'm still withholding judgment? I want to see where this goes.

Just came back from watching "Wall Street". Being slightly sleep deprived right now, I can't really say anything much about the movie but Shia Lebouf is amazing. I guessed half the story line correctly but couldn't think it through the end.

So anyway, here's to hoping Integration 2 is as easy. And that we can all pass and graduate when we're supposed to .

I should probably go to sleep now

sleepdepriveddragonissleepdeprived

AkunonA

p/s: I only act like this when I am so tired, I can't even think.

Monday, September 27, 2010

*head desk**head desk**face palm*

I'm trying to write my report for my latest case in my PBL.
Trying is the key word here.
I can't get the words to come out properly. ARGHHHH
I am stressed right now.
The topic is actually pretty common. Lots of literature available, I have the gist of it in my head. Have tried to flesh it out in my head continuously since the class last week.
And I can't seem to type it down. I am pissed.

Not to mention that Ukrida is being a bitch and hoisting a new system on us. ON OUR LAST SEMESTER. Before we go off for co-assistant-ship anyway. It still sucks.

We have an integration exam on Friday and though I have studied to some extent, I still hate this.

Alright. Have to go back to trying to write something remotely comprehensible. Apparently PBL now makes up almost all our marks.

ho yeah..... not
*headdesk*headdesk*headdesk

AkunoNA

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Jakarta again

As I suppose, should happen at some point because, dammit, I study here.

I was laughed at by a guy whom I think was Japanese (because he was holding some kind of plastic bag from Narita Airport) because I said "Sorry, sir" when I spun my trolley around and almost hit his foot. Almost because he was kinda awesome and stopped just inches away from collision. Anyway, he looked at me, and laughed.

I have no idea why.

Going on a journey alone is lonely. Figures yeah? But on the journey back to BP, it was different because, I knew at the end I'd get to meet my "most important people", as Japanese manga and anime are wont to say. But the journey to Jakarta alone (from airport to tj.duren) is lonely as hell, because at the end are endless days of stress.

In short, I wanna go home again. And I just got here.


143

AkunonA

oh yeah, p/s: when we landed and were rolling down the runway heading towards the terminal, I saw a JAL airplane outside the window, grinned at myself and started singing "Movin' On" under my breath. Because Arashi is really that awesome

movin' on, movin' on babyyyy

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Oh really?

I am reminded once again that my definition of a good read might not coincide with what other people deem as good literature.

I just finished reading a fanfiction. It was one of the community's recommended fics actually. The synopsis was good, rather interesting. So I read it. I managed to hold up until the fourth chapter before I had to stop. Wasn't as interesting as I'd hoped.
Honestly though, it may have not been that bad, but it was really, really tedious.

Really.

I think that I may be a fanfic snob. Huh.

I used to write a lot fanfic when I was in high school though. People who know me would know. It was fun but I haven't written anything since, hmm, two years ago? I think maybe it's because I'm not forced to write stuff and make stuff up as I used to be before. You know, for homework and stuff. I rarely use English nowadays as well. Which is one of the reasons why I blog in English. Besides it being more universal. I remember my teachers really liking my writing but I found one of my old essays recently and god, it is embarrassing. I can't believe I actually wrote that. And my teacher actually loved it. XD

I was feeling rather melancholic today, I had a dream about a guy I used to like. Hah. Must have been brought on by recent events. It was a nice dream. And I still maintain that for being a smart person, I can be rather dumb. He's a nice guy though, I'm sure.

Good god, someone stop me. This may degrade into a "why-do-I-not-have-a-boyfriend rant". It is not pretty, that rant. And usually strikes when I am highly hormonal a.k.a PMS-y.

Anyway, I told my mum, if ever I come to that situation, where I am that desperate, to please punch me in the face.

My feelings are all over the place. This entry may have demonstrated that very clearly. Ah well. Signing off for the night.

This was your ever weird blogger;

AkunOnA

Monday, September 13, 2010

selamat... kami ucapkan~~~

Raya conversations are all about the love

brother:(to sister) you're sitting on a stool *grins*
sister: so?
brother: LOLOL, you're sitting on a stool *grinsgrins*
sister: yeah, so?
me: (gets it) omaigod, so juvenile la you all...
mom: what do you mean?
mom: (gets it). LOLOLOL
dad: (does not get it) What are you laughing about?
me: don't worry. it's not a good joke. in fact, it's a very crappy one.

everyone else: LOLOLOLOL

We're all eternally twelve years old inside.


puns

Akunona



p/s: I give this raya a 3 out of ten. Because I am being generous like that. And the beaches we managed to drop by were lovely

Monday, September 06, 2010

A little spam

Since I already posted this on my FB but hey, I like this picture :)


in which Aiba is distressed, Oh-chan is awesome, Sho fails, Nino's pissed, and Matsujun thinks he doesn't get paid enough for this.


SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

maafzahirdanbatin

Akunona

Friday, September 03, 2010

drawing

which is something that I really want to do right now. If i have any idea what it is that I want to draw.

It's really therapeutic. You should try it sometimes. Except when you get the proportions wrong.
I didn't have any education in art. It's mostly trial and error. Giving this and that a go. That's why my shading sucks so terribly. And my proportions are almost always off.
The last art class I remember having was in 5th grade at primary school. Huh. That's more than ten years ago. Whohooo for growing up.

Anyway, Aidilfitri celebrations are next week. Tomorrow everyone's going to be home. InsyaAllah.

Though, actually, to be honest, I'm not really looking forward to this raya. :)


shiawasehanandesuka?
AkunOna

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

ch-ch-ch-changes!!

changed my blog layout.

Like it?

Still tweaking though. ;)

Monday, August 30, 2010

buka mata, tutup mata

as the Malay saying goes.

We're at the last ten days of the Islamic month of Ramadhan.
How has your ramadhan been?

I'm still thinking about mine.

thinkingstill

AkunOnA

-insert obligatory birthday post here-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATSUMOTO JUN!!!!

Here's a birthday post for our fabulous diva, Jun-kun.

I say obligatory but I've spent the entire day thinking what is it that I want to write. Unfortunately, today it seems that I have the dumb so here's a normal birthday post.
Happy birthday MatsuJun. Stay healthy. Stay happy. Stay fabulous. Thank you for being the awesome Matsujun we all know and love. With all your doS-ness, your dorkness, and your epic fan service. Good luck on Natsuniji. Even though I can't stomach it, doesn't mean I'm not cheering you on. Have a happy and wonderful time.

Have a fail drawing of matsujun during the Msute To Be Free performance.

Whilst I wasn't exactly Jun-Baited, he was the first member I could easily identify when I was still new to Arashi (strong face jokes here). His dedication and drive to his work are things that I greatly look up to. Not to mention that we're both August babies (what? I'm sure that all Arashi fans born in August feel the same way :D). Jun-kun, you'll always have a special place in my heart.

so, anyway, Happy Birthday.

matsufabepicness

AKunOna

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Meaningless trip down memory lane

My high school was a boarding school. We weren't a fancy full boarding school or SBP, nor were we private. We just became a boarding school.
Even I don't know why we were. And I lived there for 5 years. The special thing about my school was we had this KRK program. It stood for Kelas Rancangan Khas which sorta means special program. Not that I remember anything special about it.

When I was in form 4 or, fourth year, which ever you want to look at it, we had a new program called SISP. A program where primary school kids from year 4 to year 6 stayed at out dorm and went to our school. They had their own classes of course, they took primary school work but they just shared our building.
I don't know what the logic behind that was, there were just there one year and continued to be there. I kinda want to ask one of them if it was any good. If it really opened doors or anything.

I wasn't social in high school. More of a quiet, studious kid, with serious temper issues and a stickler for rules. A teacher's pet maybe. Don't look at me, I have no idea how I came out like that. I wasn't popular.

I didn't have a lot of friends in my first year. I didn't really make any good friends, I think, until second year. But still then, I was a loner most of the time.
I didn't really talk to boys. I still don't really talk to boys, but not as bad as I was back then.
Somehow though, I stuck out. Maybe because I had an older brother there. The teachers knew who I was and I have a somewhat funny memory that happened at the dining hall due to my connections in my first year.

We have this PMR exams that everyone takes in third year. If you had good results, you had a chance of transferring to a better school. An SBP or go into MARA colleges. I was hoping to transfer to an SBP you know. I had good results but in my fourth year, when everyone had offers to other schools I didn't get one. I cried, I remember.
So I stayed another two years at Tualang. Finishing my secondary school education. I was made prefect in my fourth year and oddly enough, head girl in my fifth.

I didn't deserve both posts. I still think it was because of connections rather than my own abilities. Not that I exploited it, no. It was just expected I think. That because I had good connections, I was good too. Not really.

I had a lot of fleeting crushes but the one that lasted the longest was from year 3 and continued beyond that. Not that I have ever been in a relationship. It was pretty much one sided. You can guess that I am severely lacking in the social skills department. This makes me really, really glad though, that I didn't transfer out of my school because, maybe, I would never have made it. Anyway, I liked him. And that's all I'm going to go into that.

I never knew that there were so many choices of what you wanted to do and where you wanted to go after SPM. I mainly thought that matriculation was my only chance and thankfully, I did make it there. And now, I'm where I am. I don't know how I made it, but I'm really thankful that I did. The continuous mental breakdowns notwithstanding.

I think, what I'm trying to say here is, the one thing I loved most about high school is my group of friends. I miss them. I missed the fun we had together (as much fun as you can have while being the stick-in-the-mud.) I missed out mostly, but I had my own fun. I am thankful that I had been given the chance of meeting these lovely ladies.

So, they are organizing a breaking fast event for sometime early next month. My notifications in facebook are flooded. I've been dutifully keeping myself updated by skimming through the comments. And was suddenly struck by a feeling of melancholy. So I wrote this.

I'm planning on going. It seems interesting enough. I haven't met most of these people since I finished highschool erm... 4-5 years ago. It would be fun, but at the same time, I don't really want to go. Because somehow, I remember I don't fit in with this group of people that much. Even if I went, maybe I'd spend the time with Leika or Syamok if she makes.
It seems that I haven't changed much. Still the loner, the studious kid with the glasses and the eccentricities. Though I think I do have a handle on the whole temper thing nowadays.

andmaybeijustdon'twanttomeetyou

AkunoNA

Monday, August 23, 2010

entry of expected depression

results finally came out today. I had Aqilah take mine for me since I'm obviously not there right now.

I failed my oral medicine paper. It was for the first block of the sixth semester if I'm not mistaken. Even after remedial papers I still failed that paper. I had expected it really.

I couldn't answer both papers. The real exam and the remedial papers. I had prepared myself for that particular blow. But getting the news still hurt. Hahahaha

At least I didn't fail the minor surgery skill lab as well. I had expected that. Because, come on, anesthesia is a very important step. Thankfully I didn't.

Mom said that this is a very important experience. It's good because failing will make you work even harder. Right now though, I don't really want to think about it. I have another semester before I go into clinicals.

will work harder. Will work better.

I won't let this happen again.

InsyaAllah.


notreallytakingthisgracefullyamI

AkunonA

Monday, August 16, 2010

Home

Finally.
After spending around 2 weeks doing nothing in Jakarta, I'm finally home.

Still doing nothing though. But now I'm doing nothing at home. Which is cool.

Arrived on the 15th at around 3 o'clock.

And my brothers gave me a present.

I have admittedly rather sweet brothers. Hahahaha.
Thank you for the present. :)

ah well, I should probably go to sleep now. It's late rather. And we have to wake up early for sahur and all that. So, good night.

ninomeow kazunari is big now

AkunOnA

Thursday, August 12, 2010

22

is the magic number.

not really. but today is my birthday. 12th August (as I write this, in Indonesia it's still 11.52pm)

So, last night, I greeted my birthday with my physiology book. No, really. I was bored and thought I could do some brushing up on my physiology. So, I greeted my birthday with cardiovascular physiology. All there is to know about resistance and hydrostatic pressure.
I am nerd, yes.

Anyway, don't feel any different. Still the same old me, just maybe some bunch of new cells proliferating somewhere.

We had ice-cream and crisps and wafers while watching "Get Smart" after we came home from tarawih. Bai, Ezzah, Ain and Anum came around as well, so it was pretty cool.

All in all, a pretty awesome way to celebrate.

Thank you.


random fireworks picture to communicate that, actually, I'm pretty happy :)

22 and a day

AkunonA

Sunday, August 08, 2010

sugi e sugi e to

Just some lyrics to the song I'm currently listening too.
It's Arashi's "Movin' On" if you were interested. Anyway.

Today I woke up amazingly late. After I had went back to sleep again of course. But really, that doesn't count. So, I don't really like to wake up so late. It makes me feel guilty somehow. Haha

Weird person I am.

Tomorrow we are going to go to Kota Tua. I should probably charge my cellphone. It's fairly important. And we'll probably be taking pictures. So, wait a minute...

alright, that's done

Anyway. Tomorrow we're gonna set out early. And we have to wake up early to make lunch because we're gonna have a picnic of some sort as well. Maybe I'll bring some crisps as well. We'll see.

I'm not really enthused as you can see. Most probably because I'm just going with the flow. Since everyone decided to go, I'm just going along. It's not like I'm really doing anything at home right now. So, why not?

Don't really expect a lot of input on the trip though. I might not write about it until maybe three weeks after. Haha.

One thing I've been thinking about recently. The Arashi new album.

Some people are moaning and groaning at the use of auto-tuning in the album.

I personally have no problems with it though. Mostly because to me, I want to listen to a good song. I don't care how you make it, how you sing it, or even sometimes, what you're singing about. I just want a good song. If the auto-tuning makes the song better, then I have no qualms with it. To me, it's still a good song.

If I want to listen to real singing, I'll listen to other songs. If I want to do some head banging, I'll listen to some other songs.

That kind of thing.

Maybe I have no real principle on what I'm listening to, but to really describe it, I just want to listen to a good song.

It's like, I can't really stand hip hop, but still I listen to some songs by Eminem because he makes some good songs.

It just comes down to personal preference anyway, cry moar kinda thing.

I love the new album. And surprisingly, my favourite member solo is Matsujun's. Nino's is good but kinda, you know. Just good. The meaning behind the song is sweet though. Sho-chan's is listenable, but not really something I'd put on repeat. Aiba's is aiba-ppoi and I laugh everytime he sings -discotique, discotique- because really???? . Oh-chan's solo is something he's done. Kinda like 'Song for me' and 'Take me far away'. It's good. Oh-chan's vocals are awesome. But it's too done.

All in all, I really like this album. :) Good job, Arashi.

Good luck in your concerts this year!!!

randompostpwns

AkunOnA

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Am I?

Am I the only one who found it really awesome at the reference to "Fantasia-The Sorcerer's Apprentice" in "The Sorcerer's Apprentice" movie?

Axing brooms and the shadow on the wall????

Flooded rooms and relentless cleaning????


I am almost 22 and I still sorta love Disney.

mulan will forever be my favorite though

AkunOnA

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

So we have finished

Our third year.
All results for the most recent exams are out.

I'm glad to say I didn't fail anything. Marks leave something to be desired but I am happy with what I got.
Anything else? Going home on the 15th though, I can go home tomorrow if I wanted to. And if I had the money to change my tickets. That's not entirely possible now.

How people change is awesome you know. It's sort of disconcerting.

Either way, I'm feeling weird. You can tell.

Have some pictures of recent life


rainy morning before an exam


dragonfly on our gate


atashinomiteirufuukeiha...

AkunonA

Sunday, August 01, 2010

i'll come back later

when I am more awake than I am right now.

I just wanted to say "thank you" to my friends for the nice surprise. :)

BBQ chicken is yummy. And you guys are awesome.

And you can never have too many earphones. Especially if you're me.

Here's a haiku. Of which I don't care. I just like it.

kawan kawan ku
korang semua busuk
terima kasih




It's 5-7-5. *is stubborn*



Monday, July 26, 2010

(?)

Because basically that's what I'm feeling right now.

Skills lab over and done with and all I feel, is ... (?___?)

It didn't seem to go wrong. But I have idea if it's alright as well.

Maybe I didn't fail. But the marking system is... mehh...

Ah well. I'm either gonna take a nap or do my report right now. I don't know yet.


ビ ミョ〜

AkunONa

read: bimyoo. meaning: "not good", "not really", "it's hard to say but negative"

Every now and then everybody feels stupid





Vitriol by Bluejuice.

Makan hati

hari ni buat entry dalam bahasa malaysia lah plak. tapi, mesti jadi campur2 gak bahasa ni karang.

sekali sekala kena gak meluahkan perasaan dengan bahasa sendiri. Pernah rasa tak, kadang2 susah nak express kan perasaan pakai satu bahasa? So selalu campur2 bahasa. apparently it's a common occurrence untuk orang2 bilingual. Cube bayangkan plak orang yang multilingual tu. Camne agaknya diorang nak get their point across? Too many words too many feelings. Sometimes ade satu perkataan jek yang bleh expresskan perasaan die waktu tu. Tapi kadang2 orang lain tak paham. Biar lah kan. Context tu ada. Kalau dari segi tu pun tak bleh paham, tak tau lah sape lagik yang bleh tolong awak.

But that's not the point malam ni.

Malam ni, nona saje jek nak tulis macam2.

Malam ni nona saje jek nak mengarut macam2.

Bleh kata dah tak daya pun ada.

Bleh kata dah malas pun ada.

Tapi jalan jugak. Tapi buat jugak. Tapi usaha jugak.

Esok ada lagi. Esok mula lagi. Esok habis lagi.

Faham tak? Mesti tak faham. Takpelah tak faham pun.

Na tgh exam skang. whohoooo. kalau kira post ade 138. 120 darinya agak2 ngomel pasal exam.

Nak wat camne. Sape suruh jadi medical student. Exam mencurah-curah. Kalau exam tu currency, ak rasa kitorng kat sini kanak2 terkaya dalam dunia.

So, anyway. Sok kita sunat dummy. Dengan hanya berpandukan theory and pengalaman menghentam waktu the first and last and ONLY skill lab yang TANPA PANDUAN LANGSUNG tu, esok kita exam skill lab kerat2 dummy. Karang, orang circumcise, ak pegi castrate.

oh tidak. Mintak simpang jauh. Tak mau ak repeat skill lab. In fact, tak may repeat apa2 pun. itu jek tujuan ak blaja skang. Supaya tak payah repeat apa2 dah. Tapi macam next sem kena amik semester pendek. Almaklumlah, makin tua, makin malas, makin bodoh. Orang lain makin pandai. Kau sorang terkontang-kanting dekat belakang.

Ak jealous dengan seseorang. Ak rasa dia ada segalanya. Beauty, brains and all the boys. Ak takde satu pun dari mende2 tu. Pastu bila ak tengok dia complain, ak rasa nak tendang dia. Pastu ak pikir, ade ke orang lain rasa mende tu kat ak? kalo ade, ak mintak maap. Ak pikir2 balik, ye lah. Sume orang ade rough patches die kan. biarlah tak yah jeles2 kan. tapi kadang2 rasa jugak. simpan sorang dah lah. Tambah koleksi gastric ulcer ak. Kalo ko buat OMD kat perut ak, mesti nampak banyak "bintang-bintang". Gambaran malignant ulcers dkt lambung. though i forgot the correct term, kalu tunjuk gambar, insyaAllah ingat lagik.

Sem ni adalah one whole rough patch untuk ak. Macam2 jadik. Macam2 tak jadik. Complete paradigm change terjadi. Tapi ak rasa ko tak bleh nak tukar personality ak. Study makin lama makin susah. Kenapa time-time macam ni ko jadik pelik nona? Biasalah. Orang aneh. Orang kata "it never rains, it pours".

macam mana orang lain bleh cope? Asal ko takleh?

Ak tgk kawan-kawan lama ak da banyak yang dah berubah. Da jadi macam2. Ade da kerja. Ada da kawin. Ada yang dah nak graduate. Terasa tertinggal. Ak sorang je ke yang rasa cam lapuk skit?

Aku jumpe balik budak tu. Haha. Ntah. Aku pelik gak dengan dia. Tapi takpe yek. Skarang ak dah ok. Skarang ak da sedar. Mintak maap pasal dulu2. Walaupun ak rasa ap yang ak wat adalah secara tidak langsung. Ak tak berani. Sampai sekarang ak tak berani. Ko campak ak buat public speaking, takpe. Ko suruh ak cakap one on one, sorry la. Tak lepas. Ade gak orang cam ak :)

Entry yang agak panjang dan merapu. Kalau bleh nak panjang lagik. Tapi nanti orang2 yang baca lagi confuse plak.


Orang yang berlagak tough tu, dialah yang paling lemah sebenarnya.


nonamenganehkanmalamanda

AkunOnA

ps: kalau ko baca, and kalau ko perasan tu adalah ko, memang ko pun. :)
pps: bleh tak jangan terpengaruh dengan orang lain? tu orang lain. ade sebab kenapa dia orang lain.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

I am tired

A harrowing week to say the least.

A bit of an eye opener.

It's not the end yet.

We have two days of this week to go.

Then we have another week of exams.

Then another week of remedial papers.

Then another week of probably doing nothing.

Then we are going home.

Hold on, mate. Hold on.

It's not a problem.

You've done this before.

You've whacked at it before.

You'll do it.

Albeit not maybe up to your own standards.

But as long as you pass the class, who give's a fuck anyway.

And you, my old friend. Fuck off. I don't need this right now.

I want my nostrils back and my voice to sound OK again so I can play the guitar and sing a few songs when I'm stressed out.

Oh lol.

Maybe I'll type out everything at one point. But not now anyways. I have an exam tomorrow. I need to study. Study. Studayyyyyy.......


thispostistorevmyselfupitmayormaynotbeworking

Akunona

p/s: he does not get it. Oh LOL.


Saturday, July 17, 2010

Epic culinary ________


Failure? Success?

It was edible.

Remember I once said I went out to buy ingredients for burgers.(beef is expensive! gowaaaa) So I did make them. Sometime 2 weeks ago? 1 week ago? Ignore my inability to remember my own past and just concentrate on the fact that I cooked.

This is revolutionary because I cooked. From scratch.

It was yummy. But the next time I'm making this, I have to make sure that I dice the onions smaller. My housemates ate it. They said it was good. Juicy, thick, lots of meat. I... ok? It was good. That is all.

And you wanna know something else? The reason why I wanted to try and make Japanese burgers was because Nino said it's his favorite food.

Go figure. My fangirl obsession. It's EPIC!



heart shaped patty

thoughwhenthatwascookeditlookedmorelikeablobthanaheart

AkunOnA

ready set

and go.

I have exams up the wazoo and no spirit.

Go figure.

And to think this will be the last block before our last semester and then it's co-assistant-ship time. Co-ass. You know, because we'll be on our asses, getting our asses kicked and kissing everybody's asses.

Oh yeah. You can see I'm very enthused about this. No really, I am. I'm just really, really scared.

Anyway, back to the now. We have exams next week. And the week after that. And we have to do house visits (not very good when you're anti-social like me, I'll probably just wade through this somehow. I have too). And we just learned how to do a circumcision. Difficult. Very. I hate. But mostly because instructions I received were ZERO and I was expected to be able to do it automatically during the class and I HATE diva attitude to the max and damn really. Just damn. And damned.

If ever I get to be a lecturer like I've been aiming to do, I hope I'm not as diva-ish as THAT.

Here's really just a post to get things of my chest. Uwahhh...


And "Movin' On" by Arashi is awesome.

And Chatmonchy is awesome.





Mayonaka Yuenchi : Midnight Theme Park

AkuNoNA

Friday, July 09, 2010

Soooo, I may be dead by Sunday

The final block of the semester and we are ending the second week with three papers under our belts. Blood, sweat and tears and maybe, some people who have died countless times in the last four days leading to Friday.

We're doing Community Medicine.

That in itself, does not sound menacing. But trust me, it is.

What we're learning right now, are statistics, methods of analysis, how to run a health outpost, managerial skills, administration skills, legal stuff, problem solving, epidemiology and so many more, in the basis of implementation in the community. To form a health service approachable and can be acquired by any and all. And solve health problems in the community. And to give me migraines.

IT IS BORING!!!!

So, basically, it kills by boredom.

When it doesn't interest, I don't really like to study. When I don't like to study, I don't study. As a result, I have crappy results. Really crappy results.

So that's three papers of which I have no idea of my fate.

I took a nap after coming home from the taking the paper. And I dreamt my friend was teaching me the process of administration.

SEE?? SEE HOW MUCH THIS IS KILLING MY BRAIN???

Granted we were being chased by bandits and there may have been a boulder and elevator chase scenes involved, but the point is, I was learning Community Medicine in my dreams.

I am disappointed in my brain. :(

Anyways, wish me luck! Pray that I do not fail any papers so that I can spend the entire holidays being a couch potato and watching Arashi.

ireallyjustwantedtopostaboutmydream

AkunonA

Saturday, July 03, 2010

Unexpected happiness: nona maybe running away from reality verse. 2

LOOK AT THESE!! capslock totally appropriate

I received these as a (very, really, very very early) birthday present from Rai.

I think this is the first time some one has managed to surprise me this much.

Self made photo books. <3




aiba book


nino book


I LOVE THEM.


here, look at em again.

I know I am. :D

oncloudamillion

AkunOnA

ps: I LOL when I remember my reaction when I opened the presents.


Early post is early: nona may be running away from reality verse


HAPPY (early) 22nd BIRTHDAY IERA, WAN AND ANUM

So, it's neither of their birthdays yet, but we had a surprise birthday party for them (though the original plan was for Wan and Anum only, then we found out that Iera was supposed to have her birthday on July 8th, so we celebrated her aging as well. hahah

anyway, happy birthday girls. Have another great year. :)

small mentions,
  • meat is yummy
  • the power of fangirls is amazing
Anything else? Multiple posts tonight! Since I'm (maybe, maybe not) running away from reality. And besides, that other thing? Deserves it's own post.


thisisthe130thpost

AKunOnA

p/s: happy birthday again. At least we didn't egg you. :)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

iranai, zettai ni iranai

I went to TA today, for stress relief and also to buy some ingredients for hamburgers. I'm gonna try and make Japanese hamburgers or hanbaagu.

Keep in mind that my cooking history only consists of some fried rice that I forgot to season, sambal ikan bilis which was OK, instant foods which all you need to do is fry em, and cakes. But cakes don't really count because that's baking.

I don't know when I'm gonna attempt this. Sometime soon of course. But we have full classes tomorrow *moangroanrollover*

Wish me luck

So, in regards to the title, it means; I don't need it. I definitely don't need it. Or something like that.

Like I said, I went to TA. Before I went grocery shopping, I went window shopping I did say it was stress relieving trip.

So I went into this store, which I love. It sells the type of clothes I love but I've never bought anything because it's too expensive. Anyway, I was looking through the belts selection because incidentally, I do need a new belt and one really cute yellow belt caught my eye.

Ignore that it was yellow, that's another conversation all together, just keep in mind that it was cute. So I looked at the tag, thinking that surely a belt wouldn't be that expensive. Boy was I wrong

That belt, that cute, yellow belt, costRM80+.

Who needs a RM80+ belt?

My god. Though in terms of supply and demand, if there isn't a demand then there wouldn't be a supply right? So, people are actually buying this RM80+ belt.

I'm having trouble wrapping this around my head. But then again, I prefer buying CDs to downloading so who am I to say anything? Alright, shutting up about this now.

Anyway, I also went to that CD store I love so much and I found OTSUKA AI'S CONCERT DVD "Ai Am Best". OMG.!!!

I am squealing. But it's so expensive!!!! It costs Rp300k +. (and just now I was stressing over a RM80+ belt the irony is not lost on me thank you very much). But I want it!!! I really do. Argh. Thank god it wasn't Chatmonchy though. Chatmonchy I'd have bought then and there. I managed to put it down. Even though it hurts my heart to do so. No need to mention a certain five member idol group of course. They are in a league of their own.

Oh, and there was also KATTUN's Break The Record DVD. Again, KATTUN... not so much. ;)

One more thing that I don't get today, why the hell were there Japanese titled albums in the store? I mean, where do they get their stocks. Like suddenly there were titles in Katakana for Dream Theater's album. Or Celine Dion in Japan (written in Japanese). Where do they get their supplies?

Ah well.

All in all, a tiring day. My left calf kept cramping because it's been ages I've exercised this much. Hahaha... must rectify that.

myleghurtsonlynotsomuch

AkunOnA

Saturday, June 26, 2010

vocal exercises

I sometimes think you people just like to scream. A lot. Like, really. A lot

It's hilarious.

Anyway, cleaning my room. In the dead of night. It is wonderful. Because it's not as hot as day. Though I'm gonna finish tomorrow.

My comics are all organized by number and sell and keep piles. According to which I love reading the most and the ones, I like, but am probably going to sell sometime in the future.

I've been meaning to sell for ages. Anyone can tell me where in Jakarta Barat, can I sell these? Don't really care for the price. Just wanna get rid of em.

I have too many and not enough room.

Cleared up the mounds of notes and organized my work folder. It's funny that my format for writing up my reports haven't really changed as much through out the years. They just get more... meatier? as years progress. Well, the subjects are getting tougher.

Changed the posters on my wall. I don't like empty walls. But I'm not all that creative to decorate it like I've seen some people do, so, posters it is.

Now, garish red tuxedo wearing wet Arashi has been replaced in the box they came in and replaced with cool, hat wearing, come hither expressions making Arashi. Kakkoi~~<3<3<3 Any thing else? Screaming people are screaming at everything. It's cute, really. I wonder if our neighbors think someone's getting murdered on a daily basis? I kid, I kid...

Oh!! And another thing! I FOUND IT!!! I FREAKING FOUND IT!!! I know I don't throw important stuff away. I'm not that stupid. HAH.


coffeeanyone?

AkunonA

Friday, June 25, 2010

we are DONE

25th block is OVER!!!!

Let me give you some recaps of the week
  • Sunday: woke up with a start because, "OMG it's already too bright, I'm late. We have exams today. Fuck what time is it... Wait, it's fucking SUNDAY!!!" and I had already grabbed my towel to go bathe.
  • Woke up after only two hours of sleep because I needed to study. (but I went back to sleep anyway and kept waking up every hour. Quality rest, not so much) and the first thing I did was grab my book. =__=;;;
  • Pathology died on me
  • Obgyn broke my brain
  • Skills labs were however, oddly good
All in all. An awesome week. Blood, sweat and tears all around.

You do know sarcasm right? not like some people I know


ifyoudon'tgetthisihavelostfaithinhumanity

akuNona

Monday, June 21, 2010

in which i left my brain at the door

just came back from pathology exams.

I can safely say I failed. 8D

It's kinda awesome.

But in accordance with the amount effort I put in and the execution, it's pretty much a good match.

Meaning, I didn't study, thus it's not surprising if I fail.

I'm feeling oddly bittersweet. The truth is there, staring me in the eye, I accept it, and yet...

Denial. A little bit of silly hope. Do or die. Though in this case, I'm pretty much dead

No, I'm not high or anything, this is just my thought process right now.

It's not that I didn't try though. I started studying for this shit a week ago. Granted I didn't finish. And last night was an unmitigated disaster. And today was an outright catastrophe.

I'm not making much sense. Ah, well.

on to tomorrow.

and someone kicked it into the gutter...

AkunOnA