I want a new fan

For my room. Because it's hot. And my fan does not rotate. And my fan keeps falling from it's perch that the next time it does, I am convinced it'll break in three.

I am also so broke, my bank account echoes. But ignore that. That's life. We make sacrifices. And if it means being in Malaysia with my mom and my siblings, then I am willing.

I also have work to do, so I really should not be doing this. But you know how, this feels don't you? Every student (except the painfully abnormal ones) know how this feels. Dread at not finishing before the deadline and yet too lazy to even look at it yet and kinda rebelling (fruitlessly) at everything expected of you.

I don't want to think about all this but, then again, I am right now. That's why I'm typing this, right?

I have a load of shit to do.

I need references oh my god. I NEED REFERENCES. WHY ARE THERE NO REFERENCES??? HOW THE HELL DO YOU GO ABOUT MAKING THESE SCENARIOSSS???

I swear my lecturers are sadistic. They enjoy seeing us squirm. And right now, I have the bad luck of being in the group currently targeted.

I obviously cannot work under speculation!!! It's fucking speculation!!! I need proof! This is a scientific report! (it should be, but the way this is going, it's looking like a Bahasa Melayu essay.)

That was a sudden lapse in sanity. It happens.

This week looks daunting. Serves you right for not studying since the first week. Believe it or not, I start studying in the first week of every block, take it easy in the second and start picking up in the third before going all out in the fourth. The system is fairly adjustable for 5 or 6 weeks blocks, no problem. But this time around? I haven't kept up with anything since the first week, going into the second and only got some decent studying for the first time since the start of this block last night.

Yeah, yeah you say, here you go, whining again. I feel somehow, I am entitled.

It's cathartic, you know.

Also, OSCE in a months time. Am I scared? Yes. Am I studying? A little. Am I ready? Hell no.

I am scared.


And another thing, I hate this block. Like very much.

Very, very much. Bleagh

israndomlyangryatyou

akunona

Sengal

So...
So...
Payah sangat ke nak cakap straight dekat muka?
Kenapa nak kena cakap dekat belakang?
Tak puas hati, terus nyatakan?
Apa korang takde mulut?
Takde otak sendiri?

Sedih tengok hypocrisy korang.
Bukannya apa sangat lah. Mungkin tak puas hati sekejap, pastu simpan and then lepaskan pada sesi penganyaman ketupat.
Aku paham jugak. Perasan tu, aku pun pernah ada.
Aku bukannya baik nak mampus. Aku pun pernah buat. Balasan kat diri sendiri kot.

Atau mungkin memang korang tak suka, tapi korang berlakon boleh terima. Senyum, tegur bila jumpa, jalan pegang tangan and gelak ramai-ramai. Lambai tangan walaupun jarak adalah sekaki dua, konon happy nampak. Tapi dalam hati, sendiri je yang tau. Nanti kumpul gang, lepas ramai-ramai. Hari ni dia buat apa. Esok dia buat apa. Bukak cerita dua tahun lepas. Kitorang memang tak suka engkau, tapi nak buat macam mana, kau kawan dengan kawan kitorang, kitorang kena lah kawan dengan kau. Nanti orang cakap apa pasal kitorang?

Kalau nak kawan semata-mata nak jaga muka kau sendiri, kenapa nak kawan?

Adat melayu ke? Asyik kena jaga hati orang? Aku dah malas lah. Maybe sebab tu aku jadi macam ni?

Yelah ek? Semua salah aku. Tapi minta maaf seribu kali minta maaf. Aku tak nak dah jadi pelakon drama dalam dunia epic korang tu. Aku nak jadi aku jelah eh?

Kalau tak suka pegi mampos.

penglepasan perasaan tanpa had

akunona

kalau aku tipu korang pun sape yang tau? biar je lah ak sorang2.

my module is open in front of me

and yet I am not reading it.
Ok, so I am. I started at around erm, 9 o'clock and it is now 11. I am only at page three of a 19 page note.

Yeaaaahhhhhh.
It's occupational medicine if you're interested in knowing. Occupational medicine studies diseases that are caused by work related factors, though, no pressure on the diseases. The causes are more important here. Ways to improve productivity by improving the work environment and all that.

I'mma thinking why these rules can't be applied to students?
Not a very interesting block, sorry.

I finished a project yesterday. After working on it for two days. It was supposed to be a rush job. But the thing got delayed till next week, so, all that rushing for nothing.

In other news, my life is still not that interesting and I only get piqued up at a conversation when it's about medicine. See my life? I am so nerd.

I need to get my language straight because apparently I'm speaking a very odd mixture of Malaysian, Indonesian and English. And writing it; as I can see from my notes in class. I do not make any sense to myself.

Also, hi there my old love, I'm sorry for cheating on you with 5 hot Japanese guys.

dan radcliffe why so hot?

akunona

either way

I am bored and tonight I didn't study. Hah. Take that.

I was looking through my not app on facebook and came across this note. I did last year and thought, meh, since I'm so bored. let's juts make a 2010 version. This shall be long. Because I have not figured out how to make a cut on blogger.

100 (are they really?) truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: plain water (yes, I do drink other things than coffee)
2. Last phone call: Dad
3. Last text message: Aqilah
4. Last song you listened to: Spirit by V6
5. Last time you cried: around last week I think?

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: no
7. Been cheated on: no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Yellow
13. Blue
14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: i don't think so
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yep :)
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: my mom
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: a rough estimation would be less than 50%
23. How many kids do you want?: 4
24. Do you have any pets: I want a cat.
25. Do you want to change your name: no. Because my name is me
26. What did you do for your last birthday: eat ice cream with bread and wathed "Get Smart" with the girls
27. What time did you wake up today : 5.30+am
28. What were you doing at midnight: studying for tests
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my life as a student to end
30. Last time you saw your Mother: around 1 month ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: To be more spontaneous
32. What are you listening to right now : Chou by V6 ( i have my Johnny's playlist on)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: not that I remember
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? : my fan broke in two. What?
35. Most visited webpage: livejournal
36. Whats your real name: I'm not saying
37. Nicknames: Nona, anonaanaga, nunu
38. Relationship Status: single. kareshi ga dekitaindesuyo
39. Zodiac sign: The mighty and egoistical Leo
40. Male or female?: Female. I check everyday
41. Primary School?: Kg Tengah
42. Secondary School?: SMK Seri Tualang
43. High school/college/university?: Ukrida
44. Hair colour: naturally black
45. Long or short: short is short hair
46. Height:151cm.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Not currently
48: What do you like about yourself?: physically tiny, mentally unhinged. ;D (this was my answer last time, but I'm leaving it because I kinda like it)
49. Piercings: Ears. But I wanted to pierce my lips once.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty. Meaning I am left brain dominant.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: haven't had one yet. Let's keep it that way yeah?
53. First piercing: My ears.
54. First best friend: is awesome sauce
55. First sport you joined: netball in primary but I never got the ball because I'm seriously bad at sports. The only sport I like are martial arts and running.
56. First vacation: I don't remember
58. First pair of trainers: Remind I should buy a new pair soon.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Nothing. It's midnight. Not exactly healthy to be eating something now.
60. Drinking: Nothing.
61. I'm about to: Go to sleep after I finish this.
62. Listening to: Will by V6
63. Waiting on: the end of these lot of questions.

YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: Normal kids
65. Get Married?: I want to.
66. Career?: Doctor then, lecturer.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Same age or Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Perfect Bo-deh.
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: A logical thinking person would be nice

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: There is no way I'd do that
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes. Loads of times. ;)
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: I don't think so
82. Been arrested: I'm a good kid.
83. Turned someone down: In what context?
84. Cried when someone died: Yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes ;)
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: I sing everyday
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Not that I know off.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Before I came here, so I could really think about what the fuck I was getting myself into.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day I went home. Because then, I'd be home.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Technically no.

If you've made it here, congratulations. Give yourself a bat on the back. If you can't reach it, pat your knee.
After reading most of these that I had done, I find that I'm almost always studying. There is nothing else that I do. OMG. Life, I do not have it.

Anyone know of anymore of these that I can do, kindly point me to them. I'm really that bored.

Hope this was slightly entertaining. I am of the bed.

oyasumi

Akunona

third time's not the charm

see anything weird?

Hint, it's in two pieces.

This is already the third one I bought since I started living here. I am probably gonna shell out more cash soon. I need a miracle.

And maybe a bottomless bank account.

And, guess what, IT STILL WORKS!!!!

I can't put it on rotate though. And I have to move around it really carefully and around my room really carefully so that I don't upset the careful balance of gravity and pure luck.

Also, it has been proven, yet again. There is a first time for everything.

i swear i didn't kick it or anything

akunona

that's what you think

Exams have been pushed back to Monday. We are having a three day weekend. All the people out there who have not finished reading up the subject material can now rejoice and go watch a movie or drama or mindless entertainment of your choice.

Not saying that I am not one of them.

But I still don't like it. There goes my weekend which I had thought to spend with hanging out at malls, doing nothing in particular. Now my weekend will see me sitting at home, doing nothing in particular.

I actually had prepared myself for staying up until the wee hours of the morning to study you know? Took a nap in the afternoon, finished up the smaller notes and drew up a table in my head. Yes, I am that nerdy. But that is beside the point.

The point is, my University is weird. After three years, it only continues to get weirder. I am morbidly fascinated at how weird it can get.

Though when you break it down, it's all just organizational problems.

Drama, Ukrida has it.

Anyway, I decided to take things slow and read as I go along. Maybe we'll go out next week

In other news, I want a boyfriend. So I can bully him into going with me to the mall. Walking by yourself is lonely, ya kno...

weirdismyuniversity

akunona

ps: the last post is read:

are?
what are you saying?
I don't understand.
-heart-
akunona

あれ?

何を言っているのですか?


分かりません

<3

アクノナ

Have fan art

Very blurry fan art. Drawn with pencil then colored because I recently bought myself a new box and it's just crying out to be used.

Also, Tekkon Kinkreet. Watch it. Now

anshin, anshin

akunona

p/s: it has no connection to the fact Nino voiced Kuro. Really. It's that good.

What have you done?

Let's see, nothing much really

• eat
• sleep
• read a few lines of my notes then go on the internet for a couple of hours
• eat
• sleep
• and nurse my sometimes aching throat

Yep. Nothing much really

Right now, I am... discontent. With a lot of things but airing out grievances is something I shall save for a later date. Not any of that business here today.

I want to talk to somebody right now, but even if I called them, I have no idea what I'd talk about. Talking about my studies is only so much. And it's a boring topic.

I've wanted to blog something for days, but apparently doing nothing got in the way.

Oh yeah, we did Rai's birthday last week. Her birthday was on October 5th but we only managed to do it on the 6th. Everyone seems busy except for me. Or maybe it's just that I'm better at ignoring deadlines. She liked the presents I think. Of which I am glad.

So, Happy Birthday Rai. A lot late here, but hey.

Have a picture from our Crazy Moon + Troublemaker performance some time ago.

In other news, Nona hates your guts. But rather than bother you people with all this, she's just gonna keep it inside. Because, she can't be bothered. She has so many things to do (like doing nothing). She is also talking in the third person.

Go figure.

I'm not crying, my Lacrimal glands are just hyper-secreting

akunona

this is your friendly neighbourhood workaholic speaking

I am still in a very relaxed mood.
Still very lazy to start my work again. So I'm taking the day off.
I feel that I deserve at least a day.
I'll start my report tomorrow. InsyaAllah. It's due Friday anyway, so, I need to get it done by Wednesday at the latest. OMG

Anyway, I was reading a manga just now. In the manga, the main character was reading a manga. One called "Sepatte Takuro" shortened to "SepaTaku". They then started talking about how awesome that manga was. How their favorite attack was named "The Scissors Kick" and how it was so creative of the manga-ka to think up a game that combined volley ball and football (soccer).

Then in the note accompanying the manga, the translator started saying that this "Sepatte Takuro" seemed like a made up name, for a made up sport, as far as he/she knew.

I burst a gut laughing.

They were talking about Sepak Takraw.

The translator, proceeded to correct the mistake in the next chapter, but they still owe me a new gut from laughing.

I know, I know, nerd alert. ;9

Made me wonder about the Sepak Takraw scene in Japan. And it seems that the game itself is still known as "Sepak Takraw". Which is kinda amazing, really.

I bought a crank up music box yesterday. Though, not really a box is it? It plays "Here comes the sun" which is kinda awesome. They had a bunch of Beatle songs. I was mulling between "Hey Jude" and "Here comes the sun".

Nothing much new in life. I am thinking up some stuff, but that shall remain a secret.

Either way, I hope it goes well.

onlyshe'snotreallyworking

AkunoNA

genetically speaking...

we just had our first exam in the new system. 40 multiple choice questions in 40 minutes. Starts as soon as you sit down in the hall.

Not exactly as hard as I expected it to be. Maybe because it's still the first one? We have another one in two weeks. Our "Integration 2" paper.

The questions were case based, not dissimilar to the integration papers we used to take every block before this.

I'm still withholding judgment? I want to see where this goes.

Just came back from watching "Wall Street". Being slightly sleep deprived right now, I can't really say anything much about the movie but Shia Lebouf is amazing. I guessed half the story line correctly but couldn't think it through the end.

So anyway, here's to hoping Integration 2 is as easy. And that we can all pass and graduate when we're supposed to .

I should probably go to sleep now

sleepdepriveddragonissleepdeprived

AkunonA

p/s: I only act like this when I am so tired, I can't even think.