there is a method to this insanity

Yesterday, there was a cockroach in the toilet.
It had somehow ended up on its back on the toilet floor by the door, its wet wings pinning it, making it unable to turn over. Though I have no idea if a cockroach on its back could normally turn over or not.

I finally realized it was there just as I was about to exit. Not really wanting to kill it, I stepped over it and went back to my room.

Later that same day, I went to the toilet again.

And the cockroach was still there. Still on its back. Legs still waving feebly in the air.

Feeling somehow weird, I sprayed it with water towards the drain. And somehow, inexplicably, its legs must have caught at the edge of the drain and it managed to pull itself right side up. I stopped spraying, taking advantage, the cockroach scrambled up the shower place thing, towards the large bucket we keep there and stayed behind it.

The drain was closed anyway. It wouldn't have fallen through.

So I named it Totchan. After the toilet.

Totchan was still there when I went to brush my teeth. He just stayed there quietly (somehow, my brain started calling Totchan, 'he').

"Don't look, Totchan," I said to him in my brain.
"How are you doing anyway?"

-silence-

"Oh, ok."
"Don't worry, I won't squish you. Just tell your family to please keep out of my room, ok? Thanks Totchan."

Totchan was still there in the toilet when I went to take a bath this morning.

I accidently washed him away not knowing he was there. He ended up struggling in the water before reaching the bucket and holding on to it so he wasn't swept away.

He gave me a scare because I thought he was a centipede.

"Sorry Totchan. Didn't see you. And you seriously scared me."


Totchan isn't there anymore.


I hope no one squished him.

i just don't know what it is yet

akunona

p/s: True story? Made up? Totchan knows.

p/p/s: I'll make it through this. I kinda like the challenge. If only I can convince my brain.

where's that pause button?

Because I need a breather.
So, so bad.

Don't be a medical student. What ever you do. Use your exemplary SPM results on something else.
Just a piece of advice.

I am running a headache. It's a fairly common occurrence now.

We have OSCEs next week. Yaaaayyyy!!!
We have integration this Wednesday and Skill Lab tests of Friday. YAAAAAYYYY!!!!

Either way, I have to go to Husada tomorrow. For a class.

I don't really want to think about this anymore, but yeah.

It's what I do.

I have no idea why I keep on assuming leader positions. I don't even really like being leader. But rather than let everything meander, I suppose.

I don't think they like it though.

Maybe they're thinking I'm just doing it for the glory.

I'm not.

This may be just my paranoia speaking.

Ignore it. It's stressed over exams.

Ah well. I should try to get some studying done.

pause/stop/rewind

akunona

Aidiladha

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA

2nd time sambut hari raya aidiladha dekat rumah ni. Gambar adalah gambar masjid depan rumah. Dari semalam takbir. :)
Tahun ni berkorban apa?

extra pic:

On Friday last week. Before exam Integrasi 28.

bau kambing busuk

akunona

I see fairies

That has nothing to do with what I am writing of course. It's just a quote from the singer I'm listening to right now.

Anyway.

Finished.

For the time being anyway. We have HER on Monday and people are starting to post OSCE cases on the facebook group.

I feel like my head's about to burst. It will be very pretty. Kinda like fireworks only with blood and bits of gray matter, CSF and skull fragments.

Yeeeahhh, ignore that.


I whine too much. So, have a vaguely creative post.

I made Aqilah a birthday card a while back. Her birthday was on November 3rd. We had a surprise party and everything. Though it was really, really early.

Anyway, see my creative brain vomit:

the envelope

a rainbow on Fiqi's page. I'm childishly proud of how I made this, I have no idea why


the rather theme-less cover. I just started sticking on sequins without any previous plans

my page.

basically what I did was staple some paper together to make a booklet with two pages for each girl + cover and wish page. It was really fun doing it. This was the reason I did not study during the first week of this block. I had too much fun playing art school cut and paste. Because the colored papers I bought was pastel-ly, it had to be a rather cutesy theme. I did everyone's pages and asked them to add whatever they wanted to make it more 'them' or something. But I think I got everyone's personality right.

We even got weird photos of us taken with this large glasses I borrowed of a friend. At least, we were supposed to be making weird faces. We did not exactly accomplish this.

Anyway... Pretty fun project. Maybe I'll do something like this again.

I still have a bunch of sequins

akunona

head way, I am not making any

my notes:

Tissue interactions (to laser) was considered merely as transformation of light energy into thermal energy. Destroys pathological tissue by causing coagulation, vaporization, ablation, and cutting. Known as Thermal Effect.
1967 - Observation of hair growth after laser irradiation in depilated mice. Discovery of Laser Biostimulation. Laser non-thermal effect. Usage of Low Power Laser Irradiation

I wrote in the margins:

Dulu, pikir ade thermal effect jek. DESTRUCTIVE - THERMAL EFFECT... BURN IT WITH FIRE!!! Tibe2, tgk ade Biostimulation effect oh noeesss!!! NON THERMAL EFFECT. *le gasp*

my notes are sarcastic. *facepalm* figures yeah? I have loads of anecdotes in my margins. Some make less sense than others.
This is my way of making studying interesting. May not be useful to anyone else but me.


Back to hitting the books. I am not making any head way. Did I already say that? Yeah. I said it TWICE. You will know my pain.

exams. kill. me

akunona

p/s: I remember I wrote a note about glomerular filtration where I wrote: "So, one day OO guy and OO guy discovered glomerular filtration and proceeded to destroy me life -- followed by details of glomerular filtration" during my matriculation years. I am so geek my brain hurts.
p/p/s: I abuse too many exclamations marks.

I am only as sarcastic as you are stupid

So, today we had what was most possibly the longest day ever, filled with various people talking. Most of them, about the same thing. And some not even really making sense.

The organizational skills of my university. I am in awe of it.

What the fuck were they thinking when they started the whole integration system? Granted, it's a pretty awesome idea. It's what PBL is supposed to be. But you don't just wake up one day and decide:

"Hey you know what guys, lets change the current system to an Integrated system! Without any previous planning or trials!"

And so, now, they have no idea how to calculate our marks. And they are formulating a formula. And all that. Supposedly to form a formula most useful and beneficial to us students. Not that I'm not grateful, I just expected you to have done this before you changed the system.

Planning skills. My university has never heard of it?

And today, in an awesome display of my university's amazing organizational skills time was wasted. If they had done this properly, it wouldn't have come to that you know? A lot of people needn't have missed lunch. I would call it an elementary decision but apparently, not everyone thinks so. At least they don't think so. A joint is class, is joint, fucktards.

My university likes to complicate really simple stuff.

So, now, thanks to my university's amazing skills of organization and planning, I have to take the HER paper (something like a remedial paper if you failed the real test, to help you, of course), without knowing if I passed the real test or not, that I have to study for, because my conscience won't let me not study for the damn thing. Which I count as a waste of my time.

Of course, it's all for our good. It's all for our sake. You love us, so much. So, so much.

"I am in awe of your organizational skills.
I am struck speechless by your organizational skills.
I am on my knees, begging, to learn your organizational skills."

you are honestly, really, really stupid

akunona

Ashita wo mezashite - TOKIO

So I did this. Tagged by my sister on facebook but I'm posting here instead.

RULES :

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,

no matter how silly it sounds!

Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4. Ok, go!

5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note,

and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

The answer to #20 is the Title of your note



1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

Ryuusei ha oto mo naku - Ryuusei no kizuna soundtrack (Soundless shooting stars??)



2. How would you describe yourself?

All I Wanted - Paramore


3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

The D-motion - KAT-TUN


4. How do you feel today?

Stand By Me - The Brilliant Green


5. What is your life’s purpose?

Baby Love - F.T Island


6. What's your motto?

Once Again - Arashi


7. What do your friends think of you?

My Girl - Arashi


8. What do you think of your parents?

Lyla - Oasis


9. What do you think about very often?

Purple Line - Tohoshinki


10. What is 2 + 2?

Paretto - Arashi (Palette, as in, color palette)


11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Heart Goes Boom - Hisaka Youko (Mio- K-On).. Because I love you.


12. What do you think of the person you like?

The Bird and the Worm - Owl City. If you've ever listened to the song, it's rather fitting ;)


13. What is your life story?

Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park


14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Bitter Heart - Zee Avi... Hope not.


15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Love Rainbow - Arashi


16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Hey Pretty - Poe



17. What will they play at your funeral?

Hoshi ga furu yoru demo - V6.. means "Even the night the stars fall..." which is rather sweet.


18. What is your biggest fear?

The Trial - Pink Floyd... not far from the truth that.


19. What is your biggest secret?

RPG - Chatmonchy... Role Playing Game. Hahaha. Or am I?


20. What will you post this as?

Ashita o Mezashi te! - TOKIO... Aiming for tomorrow.

Actually, I want to tomorrow to be next week because we have exams. OH NOESSSSS!!!!


Jya, ganbarimasu. Watashi ha issha ni narun dakara.


Is that even correct? I have no idea

facing the books

akunona